Welcome to the memorial website for Ciannon Basher.
This is a place for Ciannon’s friends and family to remember her, and to share memories and thoughts.
Leave a comment here on the Memories page to share with us.
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Im just thinking of you and missing you so very much Ciannon. Ive been so quiet lately…just trying to find my way. I find myself still just barely holding on most days. Summers over, Im still in Colorado…had some fun days on Baseline lake with your friends… now Halloween.. a holiday you looked so forward to.
Lets see if i can list all that you were for Halloween ( princess, witch, black cat, dolphin, a puffle (haha) , monsters!, scary beauty queen, punk rocker ( my fav) )), oh gosh i will write the others as i remember!! It was always a month long celebration for you my funny little-loved- to be-scared, and scared others-kid. I miss your spirit. Your get up and be positive every minute soul.
I love watching the picture videos, it reminds me so closely of your happy spirit, the freckle on your lip and hands, the details i miss every day. Be well my love. I cant wait to see you again -mom
I found myself thinking so many times today that I wish you were here. I never got lonely when you were here, and I always had the best times with you. Today I remembered that time that we spent hours writing stories together, and I felt so peaceful because I was doing my favorite thing with my favorite person. I always felt that way when I was with you. I miss you
Kate- you were the best friend ever and she treasured every moment with you…i know that. even when you fought…she adored you. you were trusted and true. Thank you for comenting here. You can think about her often ( as I do and not say a thing ) but I am glad you chose to reach out. She is still here with you and I……… i miss you and your crazy togetherness….kim
Thank you Kim..miss you too ❤️
We all miss you so much, Ciannon. Moving on to a new part of my life has been so much harder than I anticipated. I feel (even though it may not be the case) that I’ll slowly begin to forget the small memories I have in the midst of having to take on something new. That scares me a lot. I still think of you every time I look up at the sky and see the stars and I love you so much. I wish you were here so I could see you grow and I wish you could see how far I’ve come.
I stumbled upon your daughter’s beautiful tribute page last night, and I am so grateful that I did. I am a true believer that everything that happens in life is meant to happen, so I believe God lead me to this webpage to get to see and know your beautiful daughter.
Last night I stayed up and spent hours going through all of the truly beautiful and amazing photos, videos, poetry, and comments. I was unable to leave a comment last night, I was emotionally drained afterwards. There were times I had to stop and regain my composer. I couldn’t see through all of the tears. It was the best cry I’ve had in a very long time and I needed it. Thank you!
I am also the mama of a sweet baby girl that I lost in a horrible, freak and tragic accident. My daughter’s name is Ashley Nicole, she was 7mos. 2wks and 3 days old. My heart has truly been broken, as yours has. I can not tell you how truly sorry I am for the loss of your beautiful Ciannon. My heart physically aches for you and for my daughter and yours. I want you to know how much your words to your baby girl have meant to me. You are an amazing, STRONG mother, wife, and woman. I’m also so very sorry for the loss of your husband. How truly heart breaking. I will tell you that time does make your days and long nights more bearable. There will be days you don’t think you’ll make it, but you will I promise. You and your husband gave your daughter an amazing life. I see through the pictures she got to experience things in her 14 years than most people ever get to do. Be happy, and be PROUD of the amazing life you gave Ciannon<3
I will keep you Kim and Ciannon close to my heart and in my thoughts. Always!! I will visit this page often.
Ciannon fly high, rest easy, and you and Ashley play with angels sweet girls </3
Two years ago today my best friend passed away… Ciannon was the one person who could brighten anyones day when they’re down, she could make anyone smile, and had the most love to give. Ciannon was the most unbelievable friend. Everyone else’s needs were put before her own, and she liked it that way, she just wanted everyone to be happy. I value every second spent with her and all of the incredible memories. From my first time sneaking out to laughing so hard I was crying. Ciannon understood me more than anyone. We had an instant connection from the day we met and were friends ever since. She was always the adventurous one in our friendship, and helped me overcome fears and find ways to see the good in every situation. Trying to express in words how much I miss her and how important she is to me in impossible. But all I can say is loosing Ciannon is the hardest thing that I have ever gone through. I would have never imagined starting off high school suddenly without my best friend… The challenge has been tough, and every day I still think about her, and I still miss her. Not a day goes by where something reminds me of her. I am so lucky to have gotten to know her. I am honored to have had the title of her best friend, an honored to even know a person like Ciannon. Rest in Paradise Ciannon.
I just wanted to send warm wishes and a hug to you. Nathan was a friend of Ciannon’s from Southern Hills. We have not forgotten you or her and think of you often, hoping you are well.
My second Mothers Day without you princess. Of course today is especially difficult. Thank you for giving me 14 years of love, and memories. I was always a proud mom when I was with you…..wishing you had known that each and every minute of your life here on earth. Although you are not with me today, my heart is still filled with joy that I had YOU. You will always remain part of me and in my heart. Love you sweetie. See you someday soon
Hi, I recently learned of your daughter over the web somehow. I’m so sorry for your loss, Ciannon looked like a girl full of life, full of Hope, Love and Joy! I sure wish my life had been so full of hope and Joy. I’m a little more than twice Ciannon’s Age but I think I could learn a thing or two about letting go of things that bother me, and enjoying the Love, Hope, and Joy that life can bring. Videos I have seen on Youtube etc. indicate someone who’s life was chock full of opportunities, and experiences that anyone could be envious of. What happened exactly; if you don’t mind me asking? Judging by what I have seen I think if I had know Ciannon and lived out there, I would have had to where Sunglasses so she wouldn’t blind me with her gorgeous sunshine smile!
Just a hello again from a complete stranger out east, to send positive wishes to all there, to all touched by your amazing daughter and friend.
i was listening to this version of ‘Shenandoah,’ maybe it was the slight name resemblance or its complex, beautiful weave of light and heavy tones that made me think of you all.
(hope the link works, by Bill Frisell, apologies if it doesn’t suit tastes in music).
All the best, people think of you and this wonderful young person of yours from time to time. We’re all on this crazy spinning planet together.
Hi Kim. Just wanted to say that I think of you, Ciannon, and Tony often.
As a mother myself, my heart is broken to think how difficult today is for you. Ciannon’s life, and Tony’s words have been so significant to our family. We send so much love and positive energy to you, and to all that have known and loved Ciannon.
I just met your beautiful Mother this week and found this wonderful memorial.
“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together, there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart, I’ll always be with you”
Christopher Robin to Winnie the Pooh (A.A. Milne)
THANK YOU JILL- I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED THAT QUOTE AND CIANNON LOVED WINNIE THE POOH! -KIM
Hi sweet girl-
I feel you today. In my heart….as big as can be.
I went skiing last weekend for the first time since I skii d with you last. I wasnt sure I could go through with it , with the 100s of ski trips and crazy adventures that we have had on the slopes.
I wish I had someone to reminisce them to. Even to daddy…. but they are just my memories now, with only me to laugh with.
I was at Breckenridge. The snow was amazing. It reminded me of the time we were in aspen and snowmass and it snowed the entire week! It felt like the entire mountain and all of its snow were just ours.
I skiid many of the runs that I have done with you…….memories of you – in pictures-constantly fluttering thru my mind, around every turn.
I talked to you thru many of my tree excursions..I hope that you heard me. And of course- laughed when I thought of the day that we both blew off skiing so we could have a spa day and you indulged in your 3 hour chocolate massage. You were smiling from ear to ear. !!
I love you sweetie. MISS YOU terribly. and hope deep in my heart that I will live with your sweet soul again….in another realm.
love you, mom
Dear Kim—and in memory of your beloved daughter Ciannon,
While I am a complete stranger to you, your family’s story has moved and inspired my life. I learned of your story while our little kitty was fighting cancer. You’ve shown so much grace and beauty in the face of this unimaginable experience. I hope that you can continue to find the strength to honor your beautiful child. In each step forward please know that there are so many of us surrounding you with love, quietly standing with you, urging you on in this journey that you’ve been given. And in your story we will choose our steps remembering that each moment is a gift.
Suzette- thank you for reaching out. There is more to this story, as her father passed 5 months later. It is nice to know and feel the love and strength from strangers standing by my side. I am sorry for the loss of your kitty. You likely know from this website that we are both veterinarians, and I know the strength of the human-animal bond can be as strong as a human-human bond. God bless you and sending you love and light – Kim
A Year and a half without my best friend… I can’t even believe it. I miss your smile and super tight hugs. I miss you beyond what words can express, and will never stop thinking about you..
Stopped and looked at the stars for the first time in a long time tonight. Really putting things in perspective. I love you, Ciannon. And every time I see the stars, I remember everything about you all over again. Merry Christmas and happy holidays to the people that I love. I forever will cherish your presence in my life.
This entire website is a truly beautiful tribute to human goodness, both of the lovely person Ciannon and all of the longing and positiveness-in-the-face-of-tragedy of her family and friends. It even is a gift to me, a total stranger across the country, a father watching his own grow up. I already told my son, I am proud of you, I love you… inspired by the memorial video. All the best to you in 2014.
Jeff,thank you for your kindness. She was a very special child and will remain so FOREVER in my heart. You are a special person yourself for reaching out. God Bless you and your family. Be well and happy -Kim
Hi Ciannon- Thank you for visiting me in my dream last night. During the dream, you showed me that your dad was there with you. I’m glad that you aren’t alone. You’ll always be like a daughter to me, and a sister to Spencer. We talk about you often, and have kept the things you gave us. We love and miss you. Jenn
Thank you Jenn-
You know you and Spencer meant the world to her. She loved you like a mom and Spencer like a little brother. You were such a gift to us all. Happy New years to the Fotos!
its christmas eve day. Very lonely without you here. Just thinking about you when someone posted that “Santa is over Thailand right now” . You would take these messages so seriously and MAKE SURE that you were in bed on time. No questions asked. And the month of December, you were the BEST kid ever. Makes me laugh a bit.
I missed your advent box this year, I still cant put it out, no tree either. 24 Little mini presents that filled your whole december with joy. God how I miss your smile , laughter and hugs when trying to find the right door and opening them every morning.
I miss you helping me decorate the tree- you were always my singing companion. I think your favorite ornaments were the gingerbred man and the big purple heart and the santa clause head that you cherished when I told you only a few years ago that yes, there really was no santa.
loving the outdoor lights and reindeer. LOVED the joy in your deep brown eyes. You loved Chrismas. Not necesarily for the gifts but for the celebration of it, the family ( if we were with any) you loved all of it.
I will miss you on this 2nd Christmas without you more than words can ever say. You were/are the greatest love and pride of my life. Noone will EVER take that place Ciannon.
Sending my little angel soo much love on Christmas. I feel you all around me, so I know that you are safe.
I just REALLY REALLY miss you
Hi Beautiful girl-
I am so glad to be able to watch your life, your smile, adventures thru the “Ciannons life ” video. Makes me cry then randomly giggle at how silly you were. Particularly the birth
day pix of you and all your buddies dressed in black befor the TP attack. SOOOO much fun little girl. I miss and love you with all my heart. Tilly and Tiger do too!
hi ciannon I miss you more than ever.I even dream about you once in awhile.
It is. The time of the year when I get a little sad overall. Not sure why but you would always remark that October was a harder month for me. I miss you soon damn much. I want you here , in 10th grade with your friends. I want to see you drive (legally) and I want to hang with you and know your fun friends. I miss your music…can’t believe that I am saying that….your amazing smile and skin. And hugs. I just miss you so very much. Hoping that you are here with me in my new house.
Funny the man who put in the new Ac. Found a little pig , like you had and gave it to me…like I had missed it. Felt it was your sign. Thank you. Please keep sending me them. I see you in the clouds, the trees , the butterflies and birds, my long mountain walks with tilly. Please please stay by my side. I miss you bug. I miss my best friend and reason to live for………..xoxox till I see you again….hoping it is soon
Message: hey there
Today, I came across your daughters page in the most random way but I am very happy I did. Her photo immediately caught my attention because I thought “wow what a pretty girl”. I’ve spent the past hour reading her poetry, watching you’re video, looking at her beautiful photos. You have what seems to be an amazing daughter. Her obvious love for the ocean and marine life reached out to me because I have the same passions. Her younger photos were too adorable and remind me of my younger sister. I cried very much while exploring all of this and am still crying, not only because of the pain I feel for you and your family’s loss but happiness to see such love for Ciannon and the life she lived. I reach out to your family with love and healing. I can’t imagine that the hurt ever just goes away but from this page I can see that you’re doing her proud of the memories you’ve shared and left behind. Thank you very much for being brave enough to put Ciannons life and memory out t
here, it inspires me and her smile warmed my heart. I feel blessed to have stumbled across you’re daughters memory. Stay strong my loves, you’re a beautiful family
Hey pretty little girl. I wish I could talk to you right now, I remember how your smile instantly made me feel better every single time in IOP, and our tumblr convos… man I need that right now. I wish I got to spend more time with you. I’m going through such a hard time Ciannon, if there’s anything you can do to help me from up there in paradise… please please help. Every night at 3am I light a white candle for you and envision you wrapped in loving white light, just to continue to help guide your beautiful soul. I know your soul has found your dads, and I know you’re playing and happy wherever you are. I’m going through such a hard time right now. Remember our discussion about 16 and all that….? Here I am. 17. I’m now wishing I didn’t make this far. Stop by for a visit in my dreams again sometime, you’re always welcome angel. I need some source of strength right now. Also, you gained two new animal friends up there. My dog Reggie a bit ago, and today my dog Andie… brown eyed girl started playing in the vets office. I can’t even begin to explain how much that gave me chills. I know in my heart they’re being taken care of by you and your caring, animal loving spirit. You’ll never be forgotten Ciannon.
I remember when we first met in 5th grade. The english teacher from Country Day sat us at a table together during orientation and we were both more on the shy side so we stayed quiet. I remember slowly getting to know you through other people, and you would always brighten my day. I have the clearest memory of that one day when we both had to stay after school at the library. I remember getting in trouble because we were laughing so hard that it was disrupting the other kids. We didn’t even know each other that well yet, but I think that was probably the most I’ve ever laughed. At one point we got really close, and I would always be so happy and laugh so hard when I was with you. I felt a really good connection with you and I would just be myself and not have to worry about feeling out of place. Thank you for giving me that. I could talk to you about anything and you were such an honest and wonderful person. I remember spending a lot of time together on the field trip to Anza Borrego and I thought you were the funniest person I had ever met. I honestly would have so much fun no matter what we were doing. I miss you. I’m so sorry we didn’t stay in touch after you moved. You’re were such an amazing person and had the most interesting qualities I’ve ever seen. You were always so kind, and had the best morals. I’m so glad I had the chance of knowing you. Even though we didn’t talk much after the 5th grade, I always would think about you. I still do. Every now and then a new memory comes back to me and brings me so much joy that I wish I could express better. There will always be a happy place for you in my heart. I love you and miss you.
Sweetie- Jordan and I went to some amazing fireworks on this 4th of july. It soo made me think of the fun we had with you. Laying down at a golf course….100s of kids playing, flourescent rings and balls galore. Then how amazed and happy you were with fireworks over your head….you were pure joy, my precious little girl I miss you so much xoxo Mom
hi ciannon I miss you so much. I.wish you were here hanging with me and other people.
I only knew you for a few years since you and your sister lived down the street and I would see you every day on the school bus. As they say, no one you meet will you ever forget, and despite only knowing you for a few years, you have still left an impression on me and my sister. We think of you as the sweet, kind, funny, sarcastic girl we were always happy to see. And you still are, high up there in the clouds, and so I wish you all the best. Rest in peace, you beautiful girl, we all love and miss you.
Ciannon Basher- my beautiful girl. An amazingly sweet and generous old soul… I cant believe it has been a year …..a very long year, without your smile and crazy sense of humor. You are still so loved and missed by so many people. Wishing you could miraculously return still. I pray you are happy and at peace. I love you with all my heart. please keep visiting me day and night. I long to feel your presence every day until I can see you again.
Today I am holding you, your mom, and your dad in my heart. It’s hard to believe that you’ve been away from us for a year now. As much as I wish you were here with us, and as much as I’d love to see you smile again, I know that you are in a place where you are warm, safe, and free. Kim, sending you wishes for healing and peace…Jane
Thank you Jane- means a lot
Just another melancholy day feeling so lost. Often times, I find myself here or on your facebook or reading the note you gave me or thinking about everything. I can’t stop thinking about the cup game. You and me man, we were unstoppable. I think about how most people seem to have forgotten or moved on and it’s just not possible for me to do so. Come be with me and Jordan and your mom, we all need you more than I can explain right now and I just miss you so much. I wish you could just come home and things could be okay again. I love you.
Kim, I think of you often with warmest regards. You will always be an inspiration for compassion extraordinaire. Know that you are loved, Robin Tom & Molly
Kim, just want you to know you are not forgotten. I think of you often and hope your path has more light days than dark. Sending a warm hug. Geri, Nathan’s mom.
I miss you so much. Your birthday is coming up and I am going to celebrate with my sisters and friends.in a amazing creative way.
Kim; I think of you often. It is hard to understand the burdon that some people are faced with. I know yours is great. I know I can never really understand the pain which you live with. I would just like to encourage you in your walk down life’s path. You are not forgotten. May God grant you the strength you need, day by day. I hope you find the greatest peace. Randy Roberts
Ciannon… I couldn’t help but to think of you today when we had to put Kota down today… poor little dog was so mangled from the pit bull. My cousin didnt want to put him down but we had to.. it was so hard for me to see. I felt your presence in that room… and I know you welcomed him into heaven with open arms. Take care of the little guy for me, okay? I know you will… Love you always.
I Miss you Ciannon. I see so much of you around even here in PA. When i see girls your age who are all being silly or crazy together, I smirk and think of you. As I watch Chase begin to show his compassion for animals and encompass your gentle spirit with everyone it reminds me so much of you. Songs on the radio are the worst though. They just make me cry thinking about you. Every day I think about you and miss you. I don’t know how to care for the people in your life who are on the other side of the country but only to say….try and find peace and live every moment for Ciannon. I’ve read and internalized so many of your good friends messages on your Facebook and see how hard it is for everyone in different ways.
Kim- I am here…. and Ciannon is apart of me. Please know Im thinking of you so much.
I love you Ciannon Taylor Basher Princess Beautiful.
Love, Court xoxo
I still think of you all the time. I was walking out from dinner the other night, and I saw all the lights at nighttime and I thought of your poem “Winter Lights” and how you said “The glowing lights at night are so nice.” And I felt so lonely because it hit me again that I would never see you. But then I looked up at the stars and realized that even though you’re not here the same way you used to be, you’re still here and you always will be. I miss you so much and sometimes the pain is unbearable, but I have to remember that you’re not actually gone. I can still talk to you and I can feel your presence sometimes. I just hope that you’re super happy and laughing and eating your uncooked ramen noodles. I miss you and love you.
Something truly amazing happened today. I was volunteering at the Boulder Humane Society, and I’ve been handling cats. There was a small calico kitten with hair almost the color of yours. The kitten was very timid and somewhat aggressive with anyone who tried to pet it. I took the kitten to a play room and let it adjust. Within thirty seconds, the cat laid down in my lap, curled into a ball, and looked me straight in the eyes. I felt nothing but love from that cat. It was so nice to see you today…
Julia- she spent many hours in that play room…….and I am certain, a stare from a fearful cat……and her cat “tiger sometimes to me……comes straight from her soul. Love you. thank you for the story and letting her visit you….xo -Kim
I stumbled upon this page,
I learned little bits and pieces about your life and your friends your family, I can tell you Ciannion that after that i heard your story told by your family and friends (who love you so much) my heart melted and i started to cry and cry i hope that you and your father will be together and can be together for forever.
I hope that you have found what you where hoping to find you will always be in all of these people their harts they will always think of you.
Ciannon I thought of you today when my friend was showing me a clay pot she had made. It made me think of the time we tried to make a unicorn out of clay in art class, and even though it basically exploded in the kiln it was fun to laugh about it together. I may not have known you that long or been that close to you but those few memories are ones that i repeat over and over again in my head, because they were just so amazing. You were an brilliant person and will live on forever in our hearts and souls.
Thank you Leah. That was sweet -Kim
Nothing is as complete without you. It always feels like something is missing, and that’s you. You should be here. Maybe we would be video chatting like we did so much on school nights. I don’t know where you are, but I miss you. So many people miss you. I know I will feel this huge loss for the rest of my life. There’s no way to get rid of the pain. You were and always will be my best friend, and there’s no way to just move on after losing you. Where ever you are, I hope that you’re super happy and I hope you know now how many people love you and how great you are. If I hadn’t met you, I would be a completely different person. And I will always be grateful of the amazing friendship that you gave me. I’ll miss you forever.
I hate when people think that because it’s been a long time it doesn’t matter any more… Sometimes I’ll be doing okay but then I just break down and can’t take it anymore. That’s what happened yesterday. I can’t stop thinking of you every day and I miss you so much. Wishing I could just turn around and you’d be standing there. I hate that I’m going to keep living and you’re not going to be there to experience it also. Wherever you are, I hope you’re doing okay. I love you so much and am really missing you.
I LOVE YOU LISA <3
I miss you so much. So much goes through my head when I think of you. That laugh, that smile, those eyes, the way we connected when we first met. I feel like I’ve known you my whole life. We were so much alike. Laughing about anything and everything. I miss you telling me to keep drawing because you saw how happy it made me. You’re always on my mind. I never don’t think about you. You are everywhere and I love you more than I ever got the chance to tell you in your short life. I only hope that I can change as many lives as you did. Thank you for being the only Ciannon Taylor Basher Princess Beautiful to ever exist. No one could ever replace my little sister♥ So much love. I hope you’re happy where you are. Wherever that may be.
I was going through some old pictures on my phone today and saw this… I think it was my favorite part of your room. I must have taken it right before your room got packed up. I remember in the morning waiting for you to finish your hair I would always think about how much it was like you to have that. I was always so jealous of your room. I miss those mornings just waiting laying in your room. Then you’d come in and jump on me or something crazy as always. I hope where ever you are your happy. You deserve it. ♥
It’s raining. I think the sky is crying for you. Remember that one time it rained at school in fifth grade and we ran around and got wet and had so much fun? Those memories hurt the most. I wouldn’t take them back though. I’m so thankful that I got to know you for the time I did. I’m so thankful that I got to have a best friend as great as you. And now i’m thankful I have an amazing guardian angel, to let me know that everything will be okay. I love you and i’ll miss you forever. ♥
So I’m doing this piece of art in school for you. I don’t think anyone knows how much it means to me. No one does but you. I miss you more and more every day and it’s not getting any easier. I don’t expect it to. But I love you very much. Always have and always will ♥ You’re my angel.
I lost my bracelet. I was so upset, it took all my willpower not to break down at copper mountain when I couldn’t find it. I miss you so much, I think about you every day, I just wish you could still be here. Love you ♥
Whenever one of us was going through something rough we would just sit and talk about everything and cry together until we finally felt like we were able to fall asleep. Tonight I guess I’m finally realizing just how much I miss those nights with you. They helped me so much. You made me feel strong even when everything else seemed to be tearing me apart. You were a best friend to me and no one can replace that. It’s really hitting me now and I don’t have you to talk it out with anymore. I’ve never felt so helpless.
I can’t stop feeling this huge loss without you. I miss you so much, and nothing will ever be the same. No one will ever understand the way you did. I could tell you anything, and you would know what to say and it would always make me feel better. I know that you’re happy now, but I still wish that you were here. I don’t know why this had to happen. And I don’t know why so many terrible things happened to you. I wish I could have been there for you the way you were always there for me. I hate when people say “everything happens for a reason”. You are proof that that’s not true. Nothing makes me more angry than when people act like it doesn’t matter anymore, because it’s been so long. Everything will always be worse without you here. A girl in my english class saw my bracelet and said she thinks she knows you. Then she asked why it said “Ciannon’s free spirit” and I told her that you died and she asked how. I told her I didn’t know, just because she wouldn’t understand. Nobody does. I wish you were here. I miss you so much. I love you forever.
Be with me? Need ya right now little girl. Feeling bruised and not sure how to fix this. I need your strength. Love you forever and ever.
It’s that day again. The 16. The worst day of every single month. It has been to long since we talked. 7 months… 7 months full of tears, thoughts, jokes, sleepovers, horror movie marathons and laughs you have missed. It’s not the same with out you. It’s not as complete, it’s not as fun. Everyday with out you gets harder. How do you just let go of something like this?! I definitely can’t. I miss you more all the time. I love you so much you are and always have been the prettiest girl I have ever met. ♥
I miss my best friend so very much. I will never understand….. I will always LOVE and FORGIVE you …..I so want to see you again…..Love you with all my heart sweetheart. ♥
I miss you soo much. Everything had been so off since you’ve been gone. Nothing has been okay. You meant so much to me and you always will. You were the best friend I could ever even imagine. The sixteenth of every month and every other day around there is always the worst. Everything has been so wrong today. Right now, I’m sitting in my science class about to cry because the teacher yelled at me for talking because she thought I was even though I wasn’t. I miss you so much. I miss the perfect 75 degree days in the summer when we would walk to the shopping center and buy gum and then go to your house and swim. I can barely breathe right now. I think I’m having another panic attack. It’s amazing how you could mean that much to me that I feel this horrible without you. You were amazing. And I’ll always miss you and love you. Every now and then, this grief lets up but right now, it’s getting worse.
Here’s a picture of a day when we went to the shopping center and we were thirsty, so we went to fresh and easy and bought huge jugs of water. I miss those days.
I’ve never cried so much. I miss you so much Ciannon. Can you please come back? Your memory is more precious than gold. I love you so much and I would do anything to bring you back.
I keep finding my self laughing at our memories then realizing how very much I miss you. I really need you in my life right now. I just want to call you. I miss hearing your voice, I miss your advice, and your jokes… I wish I told you how much you helped me through everything. I can’t talk to anyone the way I talked to you, no one but you would really get it. It seems like everyday gets harder and harder. I hope one day I’ll see you again and I hope where ever you are your happy. You deserve it. ♥
Never forgetting about you Ciannon I miss you so soooo much! Everyday I remember you and get sad, but then think of all the crazy new adventures you are having and think of how happy you must b up there <33
I miss you all the tome. There’s always a huge gaping hole where you should be. I miss laughing together and swimming in your pool. I just miss having you as a friend. Even though you’re not here, you will always be my best friend. You’re my SSSS forever…psycho psychic spazz sister. I miss you so much, and I would do anything to have you here.
The stars look extraordinarily bright & beautiful tonight.
You know that that means ♥
I was waking you up this time last year. It was my birthday and I was at my best friends house. Kim made us my favorite for breakfast pork roll and eggs. Haha then we went to therapy and then off to the spa. It was an amazing birthday last year ending dinner with John Hanson and Jake Jepson. Thanks Kim for a great birthday last year. This one wont tops that. But I am meeting Justin bieber. Ciannon, you PROMISED me one day is meet him. And that’s today. So thank you for making that happen. I love you. Miss you. I need a ciannon hug today. A big one..
I passed the hospital and a rush of memories came back to me. How much you reminded me of who i was at 14. Although, you were much wiser than me. Even so than i am at this point in my life. Everytime i write here, i feel like im just letting something go into a cyber abyss with the deepest faith that you’ll hear what i want to say. I will never lose the faith that you are with me. No one can ever replace you. You were amazing. Funny, caring, kind, stunning. And we always joked about our “powers” with eachother. I could always tell when you were about to walk into the room and sit down next to me. I cherish every small memory i have with you. The “theraputic yoga session” we did. The only theraputic part was the fact that we could not take it seriously, nor could we stop laughing. I love you. Thank you for filling me with laughs and smiles and memories i will never take for granted. You helped me recover. And with you’re help, im happy to say that i will not be leaving this earth any time soon.
I miss you sooo much baby girl.! Still cant believe, or even accept sometimes that you are gone. I will love you always and always and hope to see you soon. xoxoxoxox
I miss you so much Shanananana-Ciannon hahah I remember coming up with that nickname… It’s still your contact in my phone, just how you put it in. I don’t think I’ll ever change it. It’s still weird to think your gone. I still think one day I’ll see you walking up to me in your tank top and FHS sweatpants. I’ll never accept your not going to. Maybe you will if there’s a heaven up there. I hope there is for what
I miss you and I love you. I hope that I get to see you again. I’ll never forget the time you visited me, in my dreams. You came down from Heaven and everything was okay. Everything was great. We were laughing about the stupidest things and we were both so happy. Every night I go to bed wishing that I could dream about that again. I miss you, and I wish you were here for 2013. It has to be better than 2012 was. I hope that you’re happy in heaven. I miss you so much.
Happy New Years. Miss you like crazy. You have no idea. Hope you had a great New Years up in heaven. Wish you were here to spend it with us. We love you!!
I…. I saw you today Ciannon. I saw you. I wish you were really here now, helping the world through all of its problems I miss you soo much and I know I will see you one day soon
I have so much to tell you. Really hoping I’ll get to talk to you again someday. Just praying for one last conversation with you. Love you more than I can put into words. Goodnight sister ♥ We all miss you.
Thanks for being with me. Thanks for visiting me the other night. It was so nice to hear your voice even just for a couple moments in my head. Thanks for saving me while you were alive, and continuing to do so after you’ve passed. I got this angel necklace for Christmas. You’re that little angel I have around my neck. Keep being my angel? xoxo —
It was a hard day at first without you here. But then I realized that you’re having the time of your life up there. You’re happy. You’re laughing and running around and climbing trees and doing whatever crazy things you can think of. And you’re not alone. You’re spending today with Tony and birdie and you’re watching over your best friend Kim. Thank you for finally helping me realize what this day is about. Loving the people you need, unconditionally. I love you Ciannon Taylor Basher Princess Beautiful. Forever and ever.
Merry Christmas eve baby girl-
soo many memories of your excitement over the years. I think you believed in Santa until you were at least 12. Oh how I loved those years. The fun in your eyes when leaving cookies and carrots for Santa…..and funding soot and footprints near the fireplace and we even had to go up on the roof…. You were a joy to be a mom for.
My all time favorite gift that you asked for was a full sized wooly mammoth stuffed toy from FAO schwartz. You never got it, but you asked Santa and your dad for many years for that. Guess you get to see them now, and have all the toys your heart could desire now.
I miss you soo much tonight. wishing to God that this is all not here and I will wake up tomorrow and find you bright eyed snd excited.
All my love sweetie-
It’s Christmas Eve and I wish you were here. I remember last Christmas eve when we went to the shopping center and chewed entire packs of gum, and when we ran around the grocery store and dumped gatorade all over everything and when you drank hot sauce because you were thirsty. Then you got to meet my weird cousins. And it was the best day. I miss those perfect days so much. And I miss you so much. And I always will, because you were/are amazing. And you’re so missed. I hope you’re enjoying paradise.
“Can I just say that your like the prettiest girl ever. jealous.” i told you that once and you denied it. You didn’t believe it at all. I still think so. I’m not just saying that. You are by far and always will be the most stunning person I have met. I love you. I hope your happy somewhere, sitting in your sweat pants eating seaweed and watching a scary movie.
Everything’s so different with you gone. You were the only person that ever really understood. No matter what I told you, you would understand it. And I think that that’s all you can ever ask for from a friend. And now you’re gone and everything is a mess. Six months is so long. That’s half a year, and I can’t believe you’ve been gone that long. I wish you were here. I miss you. So many people miss you. I hope you’re in paradise with your dad. And I hope all the pain went away and you’re smiling. I love you and I always will, and i’m always thinking about you and missing you.
Today, I pray. Pray for the beautiful life lost just six short months ago. A daughter, daddy’s brown eyed girl, a friend, a love, a niece and cousin and granddaughter and to some, a sister. There isn’t a day where I haven’t picked up the phone just to call you and hear your voicemail. Some nights, I want to call you hoping you’ll pick up and tell me that everything will be okay. You have no idea how much you are missed. And how much you are loved. Some days, it doesn’t even feel like you’re really gone. It’s so unbelievably hard without you here. I wish I could’ve saved you like all the times you saved me. So here’s to Ciannon Basher. A beautiful, wise, loving, kind, gentle soul. You are missed so much. Rest In Paradise. I hope to hug you again one day, girl.
I’m so glad that you’re finally happy. ♥
“You meet thousands of people, and none of them really mean anything to you. And then you meet one person, and your life is changed forever” You were that person, Ciannon. You changed everything from the moment I met you in IOP. You were sure special like that. You had a light about you.. I just saw that quote on my newsfeed this morning and thought I’d share with you how you are that person to me, because writing to you helps me a lot. I know we didn’t know each other for very long but I am so blessed to have met you and spend the time with you that I did. Again, thank you. I will always think about you because you’ve changed my life. Saved it. Whatever you’d like to call it, I am grateful to had met such a beautiful soul. I love you, we all love you.
Kassidy- she would be so surprised that she affected anyone in that way. Thank you
Please, please try to enjoy the ride of life. each moment is special and so are you love , Kim
You came to me in my sleep the other night. We talked about everything! It was so nice to see you again. To laugh with you again. I love you so much. I showed you my tattoo and you loved it. I knew you would. It reminds me everyday of how much you changed my life in such a short amount of time. And for that, I am so eternally grateful. You are having so much fun up there. I just know it. I’ve been thinking a lot about what I would do if I ever saw you again. I know, it’ll never happen. But it’s so nice to dream. Oh god. I would scream. Cry. Laugh. Hug you tighter than imaginable. I miss you. I only wish you were here to hang out with me. Because of you, I have met some of the most amazing people that I have ever known. You kept some very wonderful company. Jordan and Lisa and Annmarie are everything you told me that they were and I love them. Each of your friends that I have met holds the dearest piece of you with them. It’s almost as if you’re there when I’m with them. Because of you, heaven doesn’t seem far away. Thank you for teaching me these things and guiding me. Please, continue to help us get through the nights; for that’s when it hits us the most that you’re not here anymore. I love you. And I miss you. And the pain in so deep for all of us. Shine your light on us. Remind us. Please, keep spreading your radiance and joy and love. I can only hope to change as many lives as you have in just 14 short years on this earth. The days lack a little less light without you. But that’s okay. Because I’ll see you soon enough.
Merry Christmas eve baby girl-
Soo many memories of your excitement over the years. I think you believed in Santa until you were at least 12. Oh how I loved those years. The fun in your eyes when leaving cookies and carrots for Santa…..and finding soot and footprints near the fireplace and we even had to go up on the roof…. You were a joy to be a mom for.
My all time favorite gift that you asked for was a full sized wooly mammoth stuffed toy from FAO schwartz. You never got it, but you asked Santa and your dad for many years for that. Guess you get to see them now, and have all the toys your heart could desire now.
I miss you soo much tonight. wishing to God that this is all just a bad dream and I will wake up tomorrow and find you bright eyed and excited.
All my love sweetie-
Thinking of you Kim, sending prayers for peace and comfort. Know that Ciannon and her guardian angels keep watch over you.
Kim, today’s a day I really wish I could see you. I want you to know how much you helped us all get through everything. I remember we were going to sink the Titanic but never got around to it and I hope I can see you soon. Say hi to Tiger for me. I hope Cali or Hawaii is working out well. (I always wanted to live in a beautiful place like Hawaii.)
With love, Lisa
You are like the wind. I cannot see you, but I can feel you. Thank you for visiting me in my dreams.
sweet Kassidy! -Kim
Someone wrote here about a time when they were swimming with Ciannon and she found a mouse in the pool and tried to revive it. It touches me when I see someone, and especially a young person, have such compasion on one of God’s creatures. I believe we are responcible for our actions towards other forms of life, and not just to the human race.
The story reminds me of when my daughters, maybe 10 & 12 years old had rescued a mockingbird in the Phoenix area. It had fallen or blown out of it’s nest. We were loaned a cage and took care of it. As it grew, we would let it out in the house to fly around a little, then put it back. But the time came that it needed it’s freedom. It was summer, and it seemed that it was just too hot to turn it loose in the hot desert of 100-115 degrees. We went to the mountains, to my uncle’s, deciding to turn it loose there. We were getting ready to turn it loose, and one of my daughters went back in the home for something. Well while she was inside, the other daughter was messing with the cage, preparing to free it, when it got out and flew. The other daughter coming out, learning of this, was almost hysterical. Well, wonder of wonders. I couldn’t believe what this bird did! It landed on top of the home and sat a bit, maybe even singing a little…..and then, suddenly it flew. It didn’t fly away, no, no! It flew down and landed on one of us for a bit, then back to the roof, and then came to another one of us and landed. It did this to each of us, as if telling us thank you, and goodbye. But, when it came to my uncle, who had a beautiful white beard, it landed on him and played with his hair!
I don’t remember just when, but I believe very shortly after this, I had a dream. As I recall just a little of it, it was though the time had come and I was in heaven, and knew this same bird there. It made me think that even these ‘pets’ we have had here, maybe God would bring to heaven. God has great things in store for us, things that our minds cannot even dream of!
Except we become as little children, we cannot see the kingdom of heaven. I believe that is the innosence, love, kindness and beauty.
I read that dolphins are symbolic of resurrection and they are a message of wellbeing to the pure of heart. In greek myths, dolphins are responsible for carrying the souls of the dead to the island of the blessed. They symbolize grace, playfullnes, gentleness, intelligence, friendship, community, generosity and power. I think of this every time I look at my ring that Kim gave to me that has a dolphin on it. And I think of how much you loved nature, and swimming, and being a free spirit. And I hope that you can be free and happy now, like in your poem. “Listen you can hear the beauty of nature. Close your eyes and follow it. Leave behind your misfortunes and sadness, and fly free.” I love you and I miss you so much.
Thank you Randy for your thoughts and prayers – as i need them desperately right now
I don’t know any of the peope here. I live in Arizona and read about Dr. Tony’s death, and saw all the positive comments, and this led me to find the rest of the sad story. Sad, yes, but also so beautiful to see all the happiness this young lady gave to so many, in her few short years. Dr. Kim, I think of all the strength it takes for you. I sure wish I knew how to share some things with you and so many others. My heart aches so much as I have read through these postings, and watched the memorial service here. May The God of Peace be with you and give you the strength and all you need. Randy
Today has been 6 months since you’ve been gone. My heart is so heavy today. With you and daddy gone and all the changes. Just getting out of bed is so difficult somedays. I want so much to touch your skin, to see your beautiful smile and face, and hear you giggle. You were the biggest ray of sunshine I ever had in my life. Now there is such a hole….I cannot fill. I am trying.
I thought of making you some nutella and crackers today, like I always used to as your after school snack. These silly memories that run through my mind. i looked through pictures of you and the animals, and in Fiji today. God you were beautiful, and such a joy to be around. Tiger still wonders why you left. He looks at me in disbelief sometimes. The pictures with the 2 of you showed his absolute trust in his best friend, you. He reluctantly sleeps with me now
I hope you and daddies souls have found eachother. That daddy know knows there is an afterlife. I bet he was shocked…..but I know it is there. and you are very very happy.
I would ask you to give me strength, I dont know if you can…I am trying to find it, but some days are so difficult.
I love you sweetie, I always always will. I miss caring for you and loving you here in this house. Please be well. See you someday soon I hope -mom
Everything’s been such a mess since you’ve been gone. Nothing has been right. All I can ever think about is the emptiness because you’re not here. Nothing will ever be the same without you, and there’s always going to be a part of me that’s gone because you are too. I miss you and I miss our friendship so much. I miss everything, the laughs, when we would sit and talk for hours, swimming in your pool, walking to the shopping center and buying like ten packs of gum. I even miss those stupid fights we used to have in fifth grade and then mrs. Kashansky would yell at us. It’s just getting worse and worse. I’ve noticed that a lot of people like to joke about suicide. Even my french teacher made like five jokes about it in the past few weeks. It just shows how cold people are. I don’t know why this happened to you but it’s not fair. I just hope that you’re happy now. I love you forever…SSSS’s forever (psycho psychic spazz sisters)
There is so much I have to say to you, but I know if I saw you again I wouldn’t remember any of them. I want to tell you about fairiview, about all my newest adventures. I want to catch up with you, cry, laugh, talk. I want to enjoy your company again. The midnight hours seem so desolate and lonely with out a friend to talk to, relate to, but now you are the stars, as you once said. Fierce, but very quiet. Just as you lit up my sad days with a smile and a hug you light up my lonesome nights with a bright light in the sky. Shining down, watching over me and all other loved ones. You give us all strength to walk through the rest of our days knowing it will be okay. I hear you when ever I get sad telling me it’s okay, that I will get through it and be stronger, telling me your always going to be there for me. I can just see you there siting with me at night telling me about how you understood and would help me through what ever I was going through. I still expect to see you in the halls, I still think I’ll see you after school, just around town or one day you’ll call and suddenly everything will be right again. The truth is the truth is to hard to believe. I can’t accept it. it’s been five mouths and I’m still hoping that I will wake up one day and call you, but this time you pick up. You aren’t gone it that world.
It doesn’t feel like five months ago that we were at the fair, laughing and having fun. That feels like it was a week ago. I can’t believe it’s been that long. I miss you so much. Five months is longer than we have ever gone since we met. I desperately wish that it could go back to how it used to be. I miss you so much. I hope that I will see you again someday. I hope that you found bliss, and you get to be a free spirit. I hope that you’re with your dad now. I just wish none of this had even happened. I think I will miss you like this forever. Everyday I wake up and just miss you more than I did the day before. Today in english, we had to write a bucket list. The first thing I wrote was “make piece with Ciannon”. I know we weren’t fighting or anything. But I wish that I could have said goodbye. Or I wish I had done something, and you would still be here. A few days ago, someone told me that it’s been too long that I have been grieving and I should stop. I told them I don’t think it will ever stop. I hope it stops soon and I can just be happy that I got to have such an amazing friend as you. I love you Ciannon, and I miss you so much. I always will and I hope that there will be a time when we get to see each other again.
kim, went to lunch with ilona yesterday and we both were talking about you and wondering how and where you were. watched the news last night and heard of tony’s death…. then read the news article that said you lost your baby girl as well. …..whew, it’s just too much. i cannot even express how sorry i am that you are going through all of this. is there a chance you will be here in san diego anytime i would love to see you in person. let me know if there is anything i can help you with. you were such a help to me with all my animals, plus being someone i always enjoyed and looked forward to seeing. thinking of you xo beth
I miss you a lot, we never really got to know each other as much as I wish we did but you were so kind to me. You are one of the sweetest people with a beautiful soul and I know you never saw it but we all did. I would do anything to save you, because I know how horrible it is to feel that way, I can’t believe its been 5 months already, it feels like it just happened, and it doesn’t feel real. It just seems like a dream that I’m waiting to wake up from. I would do anything to bring you back even though I know that’s not possible. High school isn’t fun without seeing you in the halls or maybe even having a class with you I know you would love it here its a lot better then middle school. I know you’re up there right now looking down on us protecting us all and now your dad is up there too, which is just such tragic news. I know one day I’ll see you again and we can all spent the rest of time together. You were loved by so many Ciannon and I know you didn’t see it but I wish we could go back 5 months and we could all show you how much we loved you. Rest in paradise beautiful girl
Dear Kim, it is Kathy Klein, the dental hygienist that used to clean your Border collie’s teeth.
Words cannot express the sadness I feel for your unbelievable losses. I just found out today about Tony, and then about your beautiful sweet Ciannon. Although i only met her once, she was special and I knew it when I met her. She had a lovely way about her.
Something you said to me once I was there working on your dog has stuck with me forever. That is “never live in a house without love”. I think of that more than you will know, and use it as a barometer for many circumstances in my life.
You must be an incredibly special soul to have so many wonderful people brought into your life..even if their time here was painfully brief.
A giant hug and love sent to you, to the spirits of Ciannon and Tony tonight. If there is ever anything I can do, please let me know. I can be a good listener.
with many blessings,
I never got to meet you or see your beautiful face. I know you’re still here, just maybe not in the way we all wish. You’re not gone. You are the wind, you are the air, you are the trees and the grass, and the sun. You are the stars. I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. I don’t know. Is that weird? You’re always with us Ciannon. I wish you could have known what a beautiful human you are. Please come visit your family, and come visit Julia. I’ve been talking to Keenan Dowling. She said she didn’t know you well either, but that she thinks about you nearly every day. That’s kind of how I feel. I hope your pain is gone, and you are free and happy. It’s what you deserve. We love you Ciannon.
PS- Thank you so so much for being in my life Ciannon, even in the short appearance you made you’ve taught me so much. I know it’s not the end, because it’s not alright. But it will be eventually because we’ll all see you again some day.
These are lyrics to a song that I have on my most listened to playlist, every time it comes up I think of you, sometimes I cry, actually I cry a lot..
I miss you
I miss you so bad
I don’t forget you, oh it’s so sad
I hope you can hear me, I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won’t be the same
I didn’t get around to kiss you goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again, I know that I can’t
I hope you can hear me, cause I remember it clearly
I’ve had my wake up, won’t you wake up
I keep asking why?
And I can’t take it, it wasn’t fake it
It happened you passed by
Now you’re gone, now you’re gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can’t bring you back
Now you’re gone, now you’re gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere you’re not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won’t be the same
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won’t be the same
I miss you
I have been really sad lately, especially this week. I miss you so much. Whenever someone asks me why I look so sad, I never tell them because no one that didn’t know you can understand how amazing of a friend you are. I’d do anything to be able to talk to you. I feel so lonely without being able to talk to you. Today, I took one of your stuffed animals with me to school and I wrapped him up in a
blanket so he wouldn’t get dirty or injured. I sound crazy right now, and i’m sorry for posting on your wall so much. I don’t know why I always do. I wrote you like a hundred letters but I don’t know what to do with them. I’m finally reading To Kill a Mockingbird, the book you were always telling me I should read. You were right, it’s awesome. Thanks for giving me something to do. Thanks for being such an amazing friend. I’m so grateful that I got so lucky to meet you. I miss you so much. You are always the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning. And you’re all I think about where ever I go. I love you and I miss you so much. I really hope you’re happy. Please be happy.
Ciannon, there isn’t a damn day since June 16th that I haven’t though about you. About how you changed my life. I woke up that morning and saw what happened. I didn’t believe it. It was so surreal. I tried to push it away, but I just couldn
‘t. You were gone. On July 1st, I was an emotional wreck. It was the hardest day of my 16 years of life. You saved my life. And I would’ve given anything to save yours. I miss our laughs, stories, songs, hugs, games, smiles. I just miss you. God gave me you for a reason when I was in rock bottom. Then he took you away. Maybe he needs you up there, more than I do here. I think about how,you’ll never graduate high school, go to college, fall in love, get married, have kids, and so much more. I’m so sorry you were in so much pain. I wish I could’ve saved you. I wish you were here with me. I wish I could come pick you up from school and we could talk about everything and anything. I wish I could’ve said goodbye. I wish you could be here to give me a hug and tell me not to cry because it was okay. I love you, Ciannon Taylor Basher Princess Beautiful. My guardian angel. My little sister. My joy. My strength. Please come visit me soon.
Rest in Paradise.
“I am the stars”
Yes, you are. Keep shining light on all the baby creatures on earth.
People are so disrespectful, it sickens me that a woman who has done so much for all of her daughter’s friends as they grieve is being shunned for doing just that. I love you Kim, Remember Ciannon wouldn’t want you to take anything these people say seriously, I can feel it in my heart that she is great full she has a mom who is strong and willing to help her friends out too, keep fighting love! Ciannon is keeping my Papa company right now,I know it and thank her for it every night. Heaven isn’t as far away as it seems, it’s in our hearts.
I drove by the sidewalk we sat on and made up stories for for hours in the sunshine. As I passed by, Angel came on in my car. You were with me. I felt it. I burst into tears. I love you.
I remember days I was sad and I would just stare at the ground in the hall way so no one could tell, and I would see those teal uggs and know you would know, so I would just look up and you would ask if I needed to talk, I really need that now… I wish I would see you walking towards me again, I wish you could laugh, cry, talk, and have the most random fun with me again. I know your not gone but its just hard not to see you… And to know I won’t for a while. We all love you girl ♥ I hope you know that.
The days when I feel like I can’t keep going.
I think of Ciannon Basher and I have to keep going.
♥ 6/16/12 ♥
Missin you. It’s the time of year for cute boots again. I know how much you love boots. We used to always compare and compliment each others. Someone brought up IOP this morning to me in school. It took all I had in me not to burst into tears. I thought of when I picked up our oogley boogley for the first time the other day since you passed. I had the biggest smile on my face. I re-read that note
you wrote me over and over again. You told me I was beautiful and that I needed to stay strong. I miss that glow. How every time you were about to walk into the room, I told them I knew you were coming! I was damn good at that. I miss the way we would read the norms to the new kids. No damn cussing bitches. Hahahahaha. I had a couple really rough nights and I would cry. You hugged me and told me you didn’t like seeing me cry. You would compliment my art. You are always on my mind. Always. I miss you. I’d give anything to go back and save you. But I believe everything happens for a reason and I know that you’re in a much more beautiful place now. I just want to see your face one more time. I just want to say goodbye. I’ve been struggling with this the past 3 and a half months. Wishing that there was something I could’ve done. You have the sweetest soul & warmest heart. I need your strength right now because life is getting really hard again. Baby girl, come visit me soon. I know you’re there. I can feel you and I know you can hear me. I love you more than I ever got the chance to tell you. Thank you for being my angel.
I really, really with you we’re here right now. You would be the only person I could talk to right now. Life is so hard without you here, I hope tonight you will help me in my dreams. I love you ciannionionionion, remember your my favorite herb :).
Is it weird? Is it weird that I honestly think of you every day. I look through your pictures and just think. Think of how beautiful you are. How there was something special about you. I regret not becoming closer to you. Now more than ever. I think of you every night before I fall asleep. And every morning before I go to school. And I cry. I cry because even though we were far from close, I miss you. And most importantly, I wish you were still here. I wish I could secretly look up to you like I did for the past two years. Where ever you are, I hope you found what you were looking for♥
I was just looking through my pictures and I saw this and cried. I remember when you came over to my house and drew this on my wall with your new eyeliner. I miss you ciannon♥ I hope you are doing well. ♥ R.I.P Beautiful girl.
Yesterday was Halloween. I remember one year you told me you were going to be a punk rocker chick & you were wearing a bright pink wig and a silver and black strapless shirt! As I was looking through my stuff the other day I found that shirt. I could barly even pick it up because I just started balling! I miss you more then anything! <3 Love You!
Today is Halloween 2012. I spent the day in thought of all of your costumes. OMG the many requests-
– a pink glittery princess
-a black cat
— a lion
– a puffle! ( homemade! crazy)
– Hermione from Harry Potter
– witches a few times
– glamorous witches
– and the punk goth girl
I know there are 1 or 2 I’m missing. But I remember everyone of them. Trick or treating. trading candy……your excitement. God you were so much fun. I was a lucky mom
Then when you got older you loved to lock yourself in and watch scary movies….several in a row! Your poor friends!…… then we went to the Stanley hotel in Estes Park and sat up on the 4th (?) floor waiting for the ghost kids from the shining to come out……giving them candy….looking in closets……I was sooo scared….Not you… YOU loved it. I miss you and your Halloween fun. Haunted houses and all!
I love you forever and ever and ever! I’ll see you soon OK?
i have definetly found your star……. I gaze there often….wondering if it has a name. I call it your name…xoxox
I just want to let you know how much I miss you, and how I wish you were with me. There is so much I still want to share with you and it is so hard not to be able to. I want you to know that sometimes it may seem I’m just getting on and not remembering you, but it is not so. Everyday my heart is broken and I think of you. Life is not the same without your physical presence. Sunshine is not what it was without seeing your smile and the glint on your beautiful hair. I sit out at nights and look at the stars, I wonder if you are one of those stars now? Please know that I will always love you, you are the most important and best part of my life.
Message: Hi Kim,
I was on Jessica’s Facebook when I saw your post.
I’m so sorry, some people are just cruel and evil. Please ignore them. You have been a very positive influence on my daughter, Jessica, and helped her through a very tough time. Thank you.
Let the haters hate. They will have to live with themselves.
Your a beautiful person.
Message: Dear Dr. Tony and Dr. Kim,
Dr. Tony has treated many of our kitties at VSH — my rescued kitties, Buster, Gwendolyn, and Oliver…and my sister, Tanya’s beautiful tuxedo, Olivia. We are so grateful to have had you as their doctor. We trap, spay and neuter feral cats in honor of our beloved kitty, Meowy, who was treated for intestinal lymphoma for many years by Dr. DeBerry.
We recently met a very nice fellow rescuer, Audra, who came to my condo to photograph our FIV+ foster kitty, Toby. We were talking about the challenges of finding forever homes for kitties with health issues. When we mentioned our kitties’ eye troubles and Dr. Tony, she mentioned the sad news about Ciannon. My family and I were so sorry to hear…
I’ve never had the pleasure of meeting you, Dr. Kim, but I’ve heard your name from fellow rescuers, and have only heard nice things…And we’re so grateful to you, Dr. Tony, for taking such good care of our kitties…
I just wanted to reach out and say how sorry we are to hear the news…and I wanted to relay a story about our kitty, Meowy. She was an amazing cat and she lived to be nearly 20 years old. We lost her in 2009. In the weeks leading up to her death, my family and I saw shadows racing around the house. We ALL saw them…and after she passed, we saw twinkling lights flying around the living room where we all used to sit together. A friend of mine even saw them one night when she was over. We have NO explanation for the shadows and lights that we saw. I *KNOW* that there is something beyond this life. Ciannon is well and whole wherever she is..and you will see her again one day…
Dr. Basher, it’s very touching how you speak about your little girl. She is very lucky to be so loved by both of her parents!
Wishing you both peace and comfort..again, I’m so very sorry…
Ciannon, I met you when you started taking guitar lessons with me last spring, and then stopped for the summer. I am so sorry I won’t have the chance to continue with you. You were a real pleasure to have. You are very talented and special, and you have the ability to achieve all your dreams and goals. I know this is very difficult on your family, and I sincerely wish you and them all the best. Rest in Peace:) I recently co-wrote a song, about my Mom getting sick with a brain tumor, last year, and my co-writer who’s mom and dad who both passed away in the same year. We wrote this in a way we hope can apply to all of us, who are left behind after losing a loved one, someone very close, you talk to God and say “Take Me”.
© Scott Miller/Lee Johnson
HE SAT THERE IN THAT CHAIR,
BY HER BED AGAIN LAST NIGHT
AFTER SHOWING HER THE PHOTOS,
FROM THE SCRAPBOOK OF THEIR LIFE
WHEN THE TESTS CAME BACK,
THEY COULDN’T THINK STRAIGHT
AFTER THEY HEARD IT WAS JUST A MATTER OF DAYS
HE WIPED THE TEARS FROM HER FACE, AND HE PRAYED…
TAKE ME, I CAN’T GO ON WITHOUT YOU
I’M ON MY KNEES,
IT’S KILLIN’ ME KNOWIN’ WHAT YOU’RE GOIN’ THROUGH
I’D GIVE YOU MY LAST BREATH,
IF IT WOULD GIVE YOU A MOMENT’S REST
I’LL DO ANYTHING YOU NEED…
SHE KEPT STARING OUT THE WINDOW,
DREAMIN’ BOUT THEIR LIFE
HOW’D SHE END UP HERE,
IN THIS ROOM UP ON FLOOR 9?
SHE FELT LIKE SHE WAS TRAPPED,
AND COULDN’T WAIT TO LEAVE
HER FAMILY AND FRIENDS WERE THE MEDICINE SHE’D NEED
SHE POINTED AT THE DESK AT HIS CAR KEYS AND SAID PLEASE…
TAKE ME, I CAN’T STAY HERE IN THIS ROOM
I’M ON MY KNEES,
IT’S KILLIN’ ME NOT BEING HOME WITH YOU
I DON’T WANT MY LAST BREATH,
TO BE IN THIS PLACE WHERE I CAN’T REST
IT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM…
WHEN MAMA PASSED AWAY, MY DAD WAS NEVER THE SAME
HE PUT FLOWERS ON HER TOMBSTONE AND I HEARD HIM SAY
TAKE ME, I CAN’T GO ON WITHOUT YOU
I’M ON MY KNEES,
WISHING I COULD BE THERE IN HEAVEN TOO
I DON’T WANT MY LAST BREATH
TO BE IN THIS PLACE WHERE I CAN’T REST
YOU’RE WHERE I WANT TO BE
CONTACT: Lee Johnson/Doboy Productions (ASCAP)
303 442 2379 firstname.lastname@example.org; http://www.leejohnsonsongs.com
Hi ciannon I miss u so much I miss calling u ciammon and the u get mad a say it’s ciannon. Love rebekah Bachus
You don’t know us but we know your dad. He essentially saved our dog’s life by giving them sight. Knowing your dad and reading others comments on your website it’s easy to understand why your site says “The brightest smile. The warmest heart”.
My wife and I were deeply moved by your passing and by all the love pouring out for you. You have no idea how many people (and animals) lives you touched and continue to touch. We’re proof of that, we didn’t know but you touched us deeply.
Remember the movie at Christmas time called “It’s a wonderful life”? It’s about how people affect other people’s lives. Your “Bright smile & Warm heart” brought warmth to so many in this world and everyone is so blessed to have known you. You made it a Wonderful Life for all those around you. Thank you for the love you brought to everyone and continue to bring.
Another lesson from the movie is expressing how you feel about someone. Sometimes we lose sight of expressing our feelings toward others. Your dad is so distraught over not having you by his side so I decided to let him know just how much we appreciate what he does. We wanted to tell him; “We care and love what you did for us”. Not too difficult really when you think about it… just to say “You touched me” “I love you” to others makes not only their life better but yours as well; so you reminded us of that… Thank You. And yes we didn’t know you but we Love You.
A while ago I wrote a poem called “US” which is below that I thought I would share with you.
I show you this poem because I am looking forward to meeting you someday. And for those who are reading this don’t forget to tell someone you appreciate them, you love them… you care.
I wear this necklace everyday to remember you, so your legacy will go on. U told me I have a great future, I belive u, I belive that you would have to. U told me that I was wise, but I belive that u were wiser. U said u were greatful to meet me, I was too. You told me I wish I got to know you better, I do too.I belive that I could have saved u. I belive that you have given me and everyone u touched the fight they need to live, we realized how fragile life is. I know ill see u again, Rest in Peace pretty angel.
I just had to share this it fits Ciannon so well.
Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond’s glint on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripening grain,
I am the gentle autumn’s rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.
You are not gone I will see you again one day. I love you.
—–thank you Marissa….this does fit her well. xo
Today is homecoming. I know you would look perfect with an amazing dress and perfect hair… God I miss you
When I put itunes on shuffle and the first song that plays is Ice Ice Baby, I think of you and smile at the memories of singing it with you♥ Miss you girl, I keep thinking about how it’s my senior year and you didn’t even get to be a freshman. Last year I was struggling so bad that I couldn’t bring myself to go to school. This year, I wake up every morning and remember you telling me that I could do it, even if you were having a hard week yourself, and I just know that I can….watch over me this year as I work towards completing high school♥
Hi. I feel you today more than usual. It means the world to me.
Missing that pretty smile of yours and I think I’m finally getting close to ready for the story dice again. I’m working on it. I miss miss miss you. And love you sooo super duper much hot stuff
Three mouths could not have been slower. I can`t even tell you everything on my mind right now. I just miss you so much. 16 is officaly my least favorite number and 17 to.. Where did you go to? i wish you could come back.
Everything reminds me of you, I miss you so much. You were a huge part of my life and now it’s gone. My life will never be the same. I’d do anything to bring you back, I don’t care if you prank me 24/7 or ask me to stay up all night with you. I just need you.
i miss you so much. french class will never be the same.
Loved you once Love you still Always have Always will.
I wish there was a way we could talk again. I miss when we used to stay up all night texting and get up in the morning and blame it on our restless leg syndrome? But i think what i miss the most was when other people had first period we would be sleeping at home and you would brag about having 1st and 2nd period off. But now the only reason i dont sleep is because i think of you. Miss you lots
I miss you so much!!! -Kate Sagara
P!nk – Beam Me Up (Official Lyric Video)
The Truth About Love available on iTunes NOW http://smarturl.it/tal Music video by P!nk performing Beam Me Up. (C) 2012 RCA Records, a division of Sony Music…
Your always on my mind, I miss you a lot. <3
i wanted to tell you my dream i had last night. you and ciannon were at you house here in SD in your living room and i was outside your big window area and looking in and you two were wrestling. like me and you did friday. and you were beating her really good! so i knock on the door to distract you and she was able to pin you down. just wanted to tell you that dream <3 i also want to let you know that this weekend me and marissa are going to make a memorial alter on our joining gate <3 with flowers and photos and love notes <3 we miss her so much! i will send you a picture of it when we are done.
(For those that dont know the background of this story…… Ciannon and I wrestled the weekend before she left in June, and she actually pinned me down TWICE! that was a first, and she was so proud…I of course was mortified! ) Thank you Monica for the dream, and for the memorial. take a pix and post it ok? xoxoxo -kim
We wrestled too on the last day!!!! She was way stronger than me though….
Monica , Marissa Dixon and Kate Sagara…….thank you for your love, your stories ( “I lost my phone in the bush”, that was a good one!) and for being brave. Braver than me…….for taking meaningful things and helping me with Ciannons room. I will never. ever. EVER forget you. Please stay in touch, visit, call, ask me for anything. You are forever my children. xoxoxoxoxoxo -Kim
all last week i was helping go through your room here in san diego. it brought up soooo many old memories that i will cherish for my whole life <33 i kept some of your toys that really brought the most memories.
some of your dragons that we would always play with, one of your favotite little stuffed animals, and a cat you had that was married to one of my animals <333 i also got a little note you had written marrying our animals! i just wish i could have taken you home with me too. i got to keep that impossible puzzle box you had, and i am now keeping all the most importants small stuff you gave to me in it. i miss you so much ciannon and just wanted to tell you we are all still thinking of you and always will be.
love you forever and ever,
and i also got your little ninja do you remember those??? you gave me and marissa each one of those random little purpule creatures a few years back and now they are all sitting in my room together again.
Thank you so much for posting the service for us who would have loved to be there! What an amazing life!
Ciannon was one of my most favorite students I have ever had! I used to love it when she would walk into my classroom and tilt her head to the side and give me a heart melting smile and then such a loving hug the kind you feel in your soul and toes! Thank you for letting me be a small part of your life cutie Ciannon Basher!
Ciannon I wish you peace, love, joy and believing in yourself! Watch over you lovely Mom and Dad they need you more then ever! I am very sure that you little sparkley girl will be the best angel ever!
I will honor you! Your lucky preschool Teacher Kimberly Allen
I can not tell you Kim and Tony how much it meant to me to be a part of Ciannon’s life and for you to include me in the pictures!
Ciannon you made such a short appearance in my life but such an important life changing and heart touching one. Today I turn 16. I never thought I was going to make it to 16. You didn’t, and it hurts my heart so bad. I wish you could of. We all do. I love and miss you dearly. We all do.
I miss you and wanted to tell you a couple of things. Yes your Dad actually got a tattoo for you yesterday – I know the chicken actually did it – it includes “Free Spirit” for you. I know I said no when you asked and told you that you were too young for a tattoo. Please know there is not a thing I would not do to protect you, and now to honour you, you were the best of my life. The other thing – I watched the Hunger Games last night, it was the last film we went to see in the theatre a few months ago. I really think you are like Katniss – tough, independent, brave and loyal. I love you.
I miss you desperately but want you to know that I watch the memorial service, or the video of your life weekly if not more. It reminds me of your undeniable kindness, love, crazy adventureness, stuborness and sense of humor. It makes me feel closer to you to see and hear the words spoken by your friends and our family.
I have never, but now want to, THANK everyone who did stand up and shared their thoughts and memories. It is so helpful to my soul. AND for everyone who attended…. i think we ALL still feel you strong presence in our hearts and as Chris said.. “We were made a better person because you were in our lives” I love you soo much. -me
I have visited this memorial page for Ciannon many times. Each time my heart weighs so heavy for your loss, a heart breaking tragedy. From reading about Ciannon, her love for people, animals, and her parents I have surmised that her untimely death resulted from a decision that she made during a young teen’s irrational moment thought. Obviously she was loved by many and shared her life with so many friends. I feel she never intended to leave you and a terrible mistake was made. You, as her parents provided her with love, security, and most of all taught her to love the world.
This is a loss that has no explanation, a continual void in your lives, but I truly feel that this beautiful, compassionate young lady left a legacy of unconditional love all around.
I am so sorry for your loss…prayers for comfort and healing of your hearts. Ciannon’s earthly body is missing, but her spirit and soul remains with you.
Hows heaven these days? I’m missing you. Sometimes I get tempted to just call your phone and leave you a voicemail. Almost like i’m talking to you. You were in my dream last night. We were laughing so hard. ICE ICE BABY. “why did Suzy fall off the swing?” “she had no arms!” Goodness, i’ve told that to so many people in the past few days with an ear to ear smile on my face just replaying your
light laugh in my head. Haha. I started a new story with our dice. I’m waiting for you to end it i’m right here girl. Always have been, always will be. You ARE my comfort. I love you oodles, cutie imma come visit you and Kim soon! Until then, stay beautiful. I love you with all my heart and my whole entire world ♥
I’m watching old videos of us laughing together and missing your laugh that could make anyone smile! I would do anything to hear that again and talk to you one last time. I’m watching this one where we had just gotten back from the mall and I remember how fun that day was. I remember when you jumped out of your car to hug me before it was even stopped! I don’t know where you are, but where ever it is, I hope that you’re really happy. I can’t wait to see you again someday. I love you and miss you like crazy.
I miss you so much Ciannon, I love you! ♥
i am missing you soooo much! so hard to stop crying, dont know if i ever will ♥ i know you are trying to reach us all, and i am sure u have in your own way ♥ miss your laugh more then anything on earth!
I miss you Ciannon, I hope you’re doing well up there in heaven. I love you♥
She is in everything I do and everything I say. I see her in the kindness that one stranger gives the next. I see her in trees rustling. I hear her in the birds singing and the dogs barking. She is not gone. She never will be. She is everywhere. Because of her, I now go out of my way to try and make someone’s day better. The way she did. The way you raised her. I’ve never known a soul so wise. Hold on. Things will be okay. She is shining down on you with warm light and secretly telling you how much she loves you by the simplest acts of nature. It’s not easy. I cry for her all the time. And I can’t even tell you how proud I am of you for raising her for her 14 years on this earth. You are simply the strongest mother and woman that I have ever known. I even think of you as a mother, often. I love you with all my heart. And Ciannon’s love will NEVER die ♥
I love you,
Come tell stories with us.
Franklin the tree is missing you.
And the aliens and the flower and all of us.
We’re really missing you.
I really miss you.
I want you to come back.
Hi ciannon we all miss u we wish u were going to Fairview high school with everyone I hope Ur doing good in heaven love rebekah Bachus
i am missing you soooo much! so hard to stop crying, dont know if i ever will ♥ i know you are trying to reach us all, and i am sure u have in your own way ♥ miss your laugh more then anything on earth!
heyy buddy we all miss you a LOT i really wish you could talk to me in some way because i miss your voice and your laugh so much!!!! if you can read this PLZZZZ try to talk to me in someway because i miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! your probably best friend Jake
What a good dive buddy, always by my side. We all adults admired your second nature to scuba diving. I still remember how brave you were to cross those big waves @LaJolla shores. There was alot of surge that Saturday, definitely challenging but you showed much determination. We definitely enjoyed our dives in Catalina Island. You were very mature young lady for your age. I’m glad we shared that experience together, I will keep those precious moments in my heart. I’m sure the sea misses you as we all do. You will always be remembered as that beautiful sweet girl that you were. I know now that you are OK, and feel you want to be here again. You were such a blessed girl, so loved and admired. Please know I am receptive to the spiritual side. Stay with God
Emma Di Giovanni
San Diego, CA
This was so beautiful. I have been receiving many of the same spiritual feelings as you said. “I know that you are ok, and feel you want to be here again.” She is absolutely here and remains. I truly believe Ciannon is apart of everything…especially the sea.
Love you CTBPB,
MAY IT BE
May it be an Evening Star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home
Mornie utulie (Darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornie alantie (Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now
May it be the shadow’s call
Will fly away
May it be you journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun
A promise lives within you now
“Ciannon, you were a good friend of mine for several years. You were a beautiful, sweet, caring, funny girl, and although we have not talked in a while, I cannot imagine this world without you in it. RIP ♥” was my Facebook status the day after I found out what had happened to you.
Ciannon, for several years, you were not just a good friend of mine, but you played the role of the little sister I’ve never had. You spent hours and hours playing with my brother and me at our houses, and we spent hours and hours playing with you at yours. I would never trade the time I spent with you for anything, and I wish I had been able to see you more. It’s been a few years since I’ve actually spoken to you face-to-face, but at least I got to see you grow on Facebook. (It kind of counts?) You transformed from a silly, braces-wearing, adorable, little girl into a beautiful young woman, and I wish I had been there to see that happen. When I knew you, you were one of the best people out there. I was always surprised by your maturity and kindness to others because usually little kids are always selfish and often a bit annoying, haha. But you were different. You were so gentle and sweet with everything you encountered, person, plant, animal, even inanimate objects! You were so funny, and your laugh and smile always brightened my day. I was just watching the memorial video on this website, and I was in two of the pictures from your 6th birthday party at Seaworld. I still remember that party as being one of the coolest birthday parties I’ve ever been to. I got to go behind-the-scenes with you and some other friends at Seaworld, petting penguins, among other creatures, and looking at some fascinating animals. I remember feeling a little awkward because I was the only 8-year-old among a party of 5 and 6-year-olds, but it didn’t matter. I got to help you celebrate your big day, and that’s all that really mattered; it was so much fun. I have missed you since the day the both of us left Diegueno (I graduated the year you left), and I always will. I have loved you since the day we met 9 years ago, and I will always love you. The memories we shared will remain in my heart forever. Love, Kate
P.S. Kim and Tony, I am so sorry for your loss. Kim, you were practically a second mother to me at times, and I just wanted to let you know how important you and your family were to me throughout my Diegueno years. Diegueno never would have been the same without the Bashers. I love you all. <3
Kim and Tony,
I just wanted you to know that you and Ciannon are never far from our family’s thoughts. I know your hearts are broken but I hope the indelible light shed from Ciannon’s life can lighten the darkness for you. We think of you, we send love your way.
Geri – Nathan’s mom.
I just wanted to let you know how much I miss you. It was hard being out in Hawaii and not having you running around like the wild child on an adventure that you are. I know you were there in spirit, and I talked to you when I sat out looking at the stars. I wished upon a shooting star but we don’t always get what we want. I had planned to take you on the Manta Dive this year or next and I felt so down with out you. I hope that you were there in your way though and that you joined in with Doug the Manta Ray. I feel so much pain, but I am trying to believe that you are happy and free wild child. Dad <3
Thank you for coming to the ceremony we had for you out on the ocean on the Big Island. We paddled out to be with you at sunset. And you came and talked to me, and I know you had big messages for your Mom and Dad too.
I sent out an orange lei. I wanted it to signify joy for you from where you are now. The joy that I know you send out daily to both your Mom and your Dad about who you are and all that you continue to shine from your radiant soul. I know their lei’s had special messages that you will only know that night as well.
I only got an evening with you when you were here.. we were in San Diego at dinner, with your Mom and Ann. I don’t know why you’ve gone on to another realm and I know there is much pain that you are not here. But I know you are doing what you need to do and your love of animals and your Mom and your Dad are living and that you are with us and we need to open up to your the message you have for us.
You gave me something that night out on the water, and I thank you. Free spirit. You told me live with free spirit and how important that is.
Today I paddled with my outrigger crew in Kona for the last time before moving on to Maui. I say a mantra as the stroker (the person in the front of the boat setting the pace). Today it had so much more meaning as I added what you spoke to me of….
I say on each stroke a mantra…..
I am sorry
I love you
Today I added to that
Thank you Ciannon. Thank you for talking to me. Thank you for opening up that what is here now is meant to be a gift. It is meant to be a time to use our talents and let those that are close to us share in that. it is meant to know there is much out there we don’t know about and it makes it even more important to live and love and cherish each day from where we are.
I’m so glad I know you now, and that I know you will continue to show me there are ways to enter into a beautiful way, even if there are those who do not understand.
You are beautiful and your soul is all around.
Thank you Ciannon. We’ll talk soon I have no doubt.
Having a lava flow for you girl! Cheers to your beautiful soul
I am in one of your favorite places. You were here with me last March…. It is beautiful, but bittersweet. I feel you with me… but I so want to act silly with you, talk with you, sit on the beach with you.
Last night daddy and I, JT and Gary went on a nighttime manta ray dive in Kona. Oh my God. It was amazing, unearthly, and ethereal. We jumped in pitch-black water with our flashlights…. went to the bottom and shined them up. A beautiful (small) 1000 pound, 12 feet wingspan manta (named Doug) came to swim and eat plankton with us for an hour.
He flipped, did backward rolls like you used to…..and was soo joyful. At times the plankton were so thick in our lights you could barely see. But HE did, and he swooped in over my head, many times skimming my hair. Wow…just so very cool.
This would have been your next earthly dive. I missed your physical presence. I talked to you…I know you heard me.
He followed us back to the boat. As I climbed in… I shone the light back at him, and you, as I began to cry, and said “Ill see you again, and thank you”
Thank you for being with me. I feel like I have to describe, but at the same time, don’t need to.
I miss you sweetie. You are/were my world
today was a hard day, not having you in my life fills me with such sadness. I wish I could tell you how much I love you and I wish we could do stupid things like watching a movie and laughing together. We were planning to go and test drive cars just for the fun of it. I wish I could look out of the window and see you in the jacuzzi that you loved so much. I found a card you gave me sometime ago that promised me a hug everyday – I would give everything I have for that to be true and still happen. Nothing has ever been more important to me than you, I would trade all the professional success and material items just to be with you – preferably on a South Pacific Island – but maybe that is asking just a little too much. Anywhere with you Ciannon would be my idea of heaven. I love you too infinity and beyond.
Your dad Tony
Losing Ciannon was like “losing the sea and the stars”……….
Ciannon, I love you so much. I wish that I could have taken the pain away and that I could still see you and talk to you. I loved to laugh with you, I loved your smile and your deep soulful dark eyes. I want to be with you wherever you are – I do hope that it rains chocolate as you wished, and I know that Finny has recently joined you and you can finally pet him as you used to wish for when you were little. I know that Cuervo, Kenya, Dukie, and Kodi will have joined you – I imagine all of you running wild and free – you are the free spirit. Ciannon you were the best of me, and the most precious part of my life is you. Tony (your Dad)
I miss you more than anything and I think about you every day. At the memorial service a lady told me that you had just walked over a hill and we can’t see you but your still there. She said someday we’ll walk over that hill and I’ll miss you until then.
“If LOVE could have saved you, you would have lived forever.”
Miss you baby-
Tiger meows for you 100 times a day, Tilly know whats up………..I tell them you are OK and we will see you soon.
Please help take my sadness away…..I can barely function without you now. Ive slept in your bed for 2 nights, hoping to feel your presence. Please come to me….in my heart, in my dreams….anything.
I miss you dearly. your annoying mom
I just want to start by saying I loved having you as a friend. But honestly you were more than a friend to me you were like another sister to me. I have so many wonderful memories of you from us growing up together. Even just looking out my window seeing that special gate your parents made so we could easily get to each others houses brings back memories. Everything I do and see brings back memories of you. I remember we used to eat flaming hot cheetos and white chezits while playing wii at your house (we loved flaming hot cheetos and white chezits). I remember we would eat ravioli with salt and olive oil (your mom invented that, it is so good). And how can me and Monica ever forget all those games with littlest pet shops, your glass animals, American girl dolls, playing on the trampoline (evil M after that movie we saw), the kittens (here are some of them Rascal jr which became Tiger, Milky who was very sick, Oreo was my personal favorite, princess who I also took care of, and Jagjag who was Ciannon’s favorite) and those stuffed animals. I remember the one dog that Monica loved so much and you spent like an hour looking for it just so she could have her favorite character. I remember going to your house and telling you every single detail of my life and we would just talk for hours about everything. I will never forget certain games we played or things we talked about. You will always be with me for you have changed me and I know it was a good change. I also remember the first time we played together, it was in my room when we where six and we where playing with the Map (from Dora the Explorer) and you thought I was super weird. I remember when we were about eight and we literally hung out for three weeks in a row. You are my oldest friend it’s impossible for me to ever forget you. We were so close, we grew up together. I hope you saw me and Monica as your sisters because we always thought of you that way. No matter how many fights we got into over extremely stupid stuff there will always be more good memories. I remember the time we made up after one of our huge fights we were sitting on a rock towards the end of my driveway and you told me and Monica you were moving to Colorado we never got into a fight after that I don’t even think we got in any disagreements it made us even closer but in a different way. I know you touched everyone’s life that you came into. I know you did for mine. I have been going through pictures and found a couple. I even found a video of you and that ring tone we made so every time you called me it would be you telling me to pick up the phone. I just wish I could have shared more memories with you.
I love you Ciannon I can’t wait to see you again one day I hope when it is time for me to go you are waiting at the gates of heaven for me and right when I get there you give me a big hug. Good bye until then I will never stop loving you.
– Love Marissa (Ciannon’s childhood next door neighbor)
To my beautiful baby girl,
I know you can see this. & having a guardian angel like you makes me feel safe. I never stop thinking about that radiant smile that I had never seen someone else capable of. I love you. You saved me. My life. You really did.
Ciannon my dear beautiful princess and warrior. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. I still look for you and expect to see you at any moment. You were my movie buddy, and I sit on the couch wondering why you are not there beside me to discuss what we are watching, to laugh together, or be awed by some action sequence. I loved that we made the Lord of the Rings trilogy our Christmas special.
I loved that from preschool at age 2.5 until 5th grade that I got to drive you to school. We always talked and listened to music. We would discuss so much and you appreciated (or tolerated) classic rock. We listened to the Rolling Stones, U2, Dire Straits and Pink Floyd to name but a few. Even just recently I played ELO’s Mr Blue Sky and you downloaded to your phone immediately. I remember taking you to see the Rolling Stones when you were 8, you stood on the chair and sang the songs. Last year we went to see U2, how I loved taking you to such events.
You are a rock star – a natural being able to read music, you played at various times the piano, saxaphone and of course the Fender Stratocaster guitar (blue like a real rock goddess). We talked about cars – and watched those quirky British TV shows such as Top Gear. You would have definitely been the coolest secret agent driving the lime green Lamborghini Aventador.
I miss you so much my love, you are like the Evening Star shining brightly (lets face it you were no morning person). There is so much I want to say and tell about your life, and how incredible you are. Animals seemed magnitised to you – Wolfie and Cassie are looking for you and they love you too.
Ciannon, you humble me in this modern world, you are the most sensitive, unselfish, caring person I have ever known. I have looked at pictures of you for weeks, and found older ones that bring back incredible memories. I wish the memories could continue – I looked forward to more adventures with you, seeing you become a success in whatever you eventually chose to do. It seems though that you are mercurial, your star has shone brightly and you passed through our lives all too quickly. I am left with memories, saddness and a wish for more with you Ciannon Taylor Basher Princess Beautiful.
I found this poem that you wrote for me when you were probably in 3rd grade:
MY LOVE FOR YOU
You are always there when I need you.
You have taught me how to play soccer.
You taught me how to ride my bike,
to be strong and brave,
and to swim.
You taught me how to walk and talk.
You are very, very funny and silly.
you went to the soccer and baseball game with me?
You taught me how to be myself.
Love and kisses,
This shows how kind she is.
Tony (Ciannon’s Dad)
It is my turn to write. And, although a month has passed, I don’t think 1 minute has gone by without me thinking of you.
Your walking in the door, plopping on the sofa, talking or not talking, by yourself or with 3 friends trailing behind you. Your new crazy songs, downloaded daily (which you loved to share with me). Dinosaur eggs/ pork roll/ or yogurt for breakfast? Always with a cinnamon roll/butter and lemonade. Ugh. What I would give to make you breakfast again. Or, for you to barge through that door in laughter. Or say later, I m going out to climb a tree!
The 10, maybe 15 times EVERY MORNING, going downstairs or calling you to get out of bed. Straightening the back of your hair every morning (I will tell nobody I ever did that). The lunches I still packed….you rarely ate them.
The pickups after school with “smiling” Tilly (where your friends would literally jump onto my car) …or you would walk/bike home……..the many times I let you drive my truck……
This new school year will be hard…I don’t think I can bear it….
I wished for you here in Boulder- new adventures, healthy friends, an activity you could sink your teeth into, you really LIKING yourself, high school, boyfriends, plans for your future …………… you were solidly on your way and WE tried our best…..YOU AND I.
I love you. I always loved you. I will love you and cherish you until the day I die.
The baby, I rocked and sang to sleep (to the lullaby-“wings”- on the ciannon’s life video). The every second we spent together until you were 3 0r 4. Everywhere in southern California…I cant even begin to name. The “jungle gym” I was to you, and the way you called me Mah’ey (dropping the m).
You demanded activity…never liked to be bored.
You carried that through your life, always needing friends around you. Oh, how much you wanted a brother or sister. I am sorry for that.
For the 1000’s of kittens, (many of them really sick), that you helped me foster. Socializing them- with Monica and Marissa, in only a way that an 8-year-old girl could do. Dressing them in doll clothes and making every habitat for them imaginable. I will miss that……. I will really miss that! Again, it is difficult to imagine ever fostering again .
The amazing times we had in our pool in San Diego…..mostly without your friends, the races underwater, the silly games we played, the day you said “ Mommy, don’t you know that you were a young dolphin killed in a net and I was an old dolphin” … I was mesmerized. But, we definitely could swim like dolphins nonetheless.
The amazing way you rescued Fluffy, my favorite chicken and medicated her while I was gone, put acupuncture needles in my back when I asked you to, rescued just about every living creature…. And sadly to me…I couldn’t even go fishing because of your convictions.
I can’t imagine ever traveling without you again.
You asked one time that your ashes be scattered in Fiji……can I bear that journey without you?
“My traveling trooper”- To Fiji twice, Hawaii several times, the Galapagos islands on my 50th birthday, England, Tijuana to help build houses, and Scammon’s Lagoon to see and touch the 100s of greywhales and their babies, all throughout the US, the Jersey shore,the dude ranches, the sooooo many fun road trips, rafting and houseboat trips on lake Powell, the snorkeling and water adventures, and the skiing.
I remember soo vividly taking this 2-year-old girl, and every year thereafter, from San Diego to a Rocky Mountain resort. It took more than a full day to get you used to long sleeved clothes, mittens, pants, boots….and the snow. It was Disneyland to you! But it was so difficult for you to function, as you only knew shorts, bathing suits and flip-flops. In the end you were my best buddy black diamond tree skier……the laughs we had, the cliffs we went off, the crazy made up runs we braved. (Always with a helmet!) The exhausted walks “home” with our boots and gear on. You were hilarious. You are my skiing soulmate for sure.
I remember last summer when you became certified in Scuba. The several adults that could not make it out through the Lajolla rough shore water, those that were sick from the rough ocean waters. (and did not get certified!) But no, not my 85#, “I do it by myself”, “dolphin”. You did 4 ocean dives by yourself with no ones help and you never looked back.
I have to say I do mourn the diving trips (we talked about) that we never got to take. Kenya, and Fiji again…. They were on our soon to be completed bucket list.
And, I guess lastly I just wanted you to know that although I know that Tilly, Tiger, and Chill know that you wont be coming back…. that I reassure them daily that you are well and they will see you again………
I have read a lot now about where souls go…the many possibilities.
I DO KNOW that you are OK. Likely in a very peaceful place with your soul and others you may know. I have left a candle burning for you every day and every night since you left us…to guide your way if you need it. But somehow I know, as that wise old soul (that you were) ..you have been there before. This was not your first life…..although I am so very grateful that you chose to spend these last 14 years with me. I look back and cherish each second we had together.
I regret nothing. We both tried our best, in what wasn’t always the best of conditions. But that is this life here on earth. Most of the time, it was incredible!
I do however wish you would, or could have chosen to stick around longer. I don’t know if our lives are predetermined or not. But I FORGIVE you with every cell of my being. I want you at peace.
I feel that you are now at peace.
I love you Princess…and will pray and send thoughts your way daily. I miss you dearly.
You were my GREATEST joy and I KNOW that I cant wait to see you again someday.
“In the end, everything is alright. If it’s not alright then it’s not the end” One month, and this hasn’t gotten any easier, I think about you everyday. I love you baby girl♥ 6.16.12 —
“don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry. Some times love is not enough and the road gets tough I don’t know why”
It’s already a month and I still miss you. I think of you all the time. You were and are where ever you are a wonderful beautiful person. I love you Ciannon. ♥
June 16th, 2012 Ciannon Taylor Basher Princess Beautiful left this world & went to a better place. A month ago today & you haven’t left my mind once. Baby, I miss you so much. I cry for your beautiful soul & all the ways you’ve effected my life.
Never EVER forget.
She is in the wind blowing through the trees & the birds singing songs.
She is still here showing me how I deserve this life & happiness. She saved my life on February 25th. My guardian angel ♥
Ciannon, you are the most beautiful, kind, awesome, and smartest girl i have ever met i remember the first time we ever met it was when you were hanging out with elijah and i was hanging out with you guys and after i hung out with you for the first time i just knew that you looked so nice and sure enough i was right we started to hang out a lot and when i need help with anything you were the only person that i could trust and you were also the only person that would make me feel so much better i promise you that i will never ever forget you i will miss you and love you FOREVER❤❤
I remember the Summer after fifth grade, Ciannon and I were swimming in her pool. We were having a lot of fun and laughing. Then, Ciannon saw a dead mouse floating in the water. She swam over to it and put it on land. She started doing CPR on it, with one finger, and she was blowing into it’s mouth. She did this for about 30 minutes, until we were both sure that it wasn’t going to wake up. She tried so hard, just to save a dead mouse, because she loved animals so much. She was such a fantastic person.
I also remember a time when were at the shopping center by her house, and we got thirsty. So, we went into a grocery store called Fresh & Easy. We couldn’t find water bottles, so we bought huge jugs of water that were 2 gallons each. We laughed so hard because of all the looks that we got. But it was a great day, because I got to spend it with Ciannon. She was so brilliant and funny and kind. I will love and miss her forever
Kate- did she really do this? OMG geez! I love you! Thank you for entertaining her (Kim)
Kim- Yes she did!! I thought it was amazing! She was such a good person. And I love you too Kim and thank you for everything. She was really, really proud that you and Tony were her parents.
You are awesome. the next time you see a mouse..it is now your duty!
i have been crying hours on end. you have been my neighbor for so many years now and have always been there for me and marissa. i will deeply miss being a little kid with you, ever since you moved and came to visit we have been reliving our childhood and now without you here i guess it is time to grow up. i wish that i could have seen you one last time, we were so close. but i know that you have finally found the peace you are looking for. i love you so much, you had so much to offer the world and i hope that now you know that. i know you are in heaven now and you will forever be in our hearts and missed. i love you so much ciannion! rest in peace ♥
How often you visit me in my thoughts. I learned a great deal from you, from the long conversations we had in my office. Sometimes I had to pause, and remember that you were 14 years old. As many spoke of at your memorial service, you were an old soul. You wanted to skip the messiness of adolescence and move right into adulthood. Your poetry was so profound, and you were wise beyond your years. The loss of you in my life has left a great void. You touched so many people in your brief life, and I am so grateful to have known you. I pray that you are peaceful in the arms of God, the angels…whatever lies beyond this life. And I pray for your mom, your dad, your extended family, and all the many, many friends who loved you dearly.
Ms. Cornelius Smith
Thank you so much for Ciannon’s remembrance service. You were so generous in sharing photos, art work, poetry, and memories. I loved hearing about Ciannon as a tiny girl, her fierce independence, her unruly auburn hair, her love for all creatures. I loved the stories of her “kissing rat”, her “full “name, and her beach time in Fiji. I didn’t know that she could snorkel and scuba, stand up paddle board, and ski expert runs. And she wanted to be a CIA agent? Really?!? I can kind of see it. I loved hearing Ciannon’s friends talk about how funny and fearless she was, and what a kind friend she was to them, and how deeply they miss her. And I have taken to heart Tony’s words about telling our children–more–how much we love and treasure them, and how proud we are of them. Thank you for bringing us together to honor Ciannon, to cry together, hug, and comfort one another.
Ciannon touched so many lives. Her kindness, her beauty, and her wild, adventurous spirit will live on in the gifts she has given us.
I know that she will never be forgotten. Wherever she is, I think that she is smiling that radiant smile, knowing how much she is loved. Jane
I can not even come up with a sentence that make any sense right now. I just want to let you my thoughts and prayers are with you. You know how much of a fan I was of your daughter. Her photo has adorned my bulletin board at the Wild Animal Park for the past 10 years or so and there it will stay. Sending angels your way. Z.
Such a tragedy is very difficult to endure, and we share your grief. We honor Ciannon’s tender, vibrant spirit–her devotion as a daughter and friend. We can feel the warmth of her good nature and noble character, the determination of her spirit, the dependability of her kindness and sensitivity toward living creatures. She is of the earth, of the sea, of the sky– that hold her soft essence, her remarkable intelligence and rare beauty, and we celebrate her humility and passion that are woven into the richest tapestry of human gifts. We will always remember Ciannon’s beautiful spirit and hold her close to our hearts ’til the end of our days.
With all our love,
Leah and Michael and your Diegueño Family
Ciannon had loving parents, and a supportive, involved family. With a loss like this, we often wonder what else we could have done. But some tragedies are simply impossible to comprehend.
I found Ciannon to be a funny, smart girl with an open and kind heart. She had a deep love for her parents and family, her friends, and her cherished pets. Her radiant smile brought joy to all of us. I was honored to know Ciannon, and I will miss her.
I like to think of her now in a place where there is no darkness and no pain, where she is held in the warmth and caring of those who love her and miss her terribly, and where her bright spirit will shine forever.
Ciannon will always be remembered, she will always be loved.
Please know that you are in my thoughts. If there is any way I can be helpful, let me know.
Dearest Ciannon: Every time you came in the door I said “Hello Princess!” (I didn’t know Princess was part of the name you’d given yourself anyway, but how fitting it was!) You slept occasional weekend nights on the couch (I have flowers from your service on a table next to it), hung out with the kids, and complimented me on my cake and sugar flower work. On your birthday this year I said I’d make you a cake but I was sick, so I still owe it to you. You didn’t forget, but also didn’t complain!
You liked my cake pops. When you couldn’t sleep one night, and instead cleaned Forest’s room I fell more in love with you than I already was. Making you some special cake pops was my way of saying thanks. I am glad you liked them.
In a house full of males, having you around was a breath of fresh air. You would chat with anyone here, no problems – from our 12 year old to my 71- year old dad. You loved meeting everyone and how lucky they were to get a dose of you. You are fun, vivacious, full of personality and life. As every 14 year old should be. You were perfect.
Since you left us, our family has been so blessed to get to know your mom, aunt and others special to you. What an incredible, beautiful family you have. It’s easy to see how they made you into such a gorgeous young woman. How unfair it is that they will never have your beauty fulfilled through age. Your mom will always have you as her child. You will always be so lucky to have Kim as your mom. Her love for you knows no bounds. I will never forget you saying “My mom rocks!” in our car two days before you went to San Diego. Because she totally does, and you knew that.
My friend, we will carry you with us, in our hearts and minds, as we ourselves age. We had so much more to share. I told you we would make cake pops together when you got back. We had plans. Let’s take a raincheck – I know we’ll see each other again; at a time where these tears have become stale we will have tears of joy in connecting again. I’m counting on it and I know our God loves us so much, He will ensure it happens.
I miss you.
Last night I had a dream. My dream was a memory of something that happened. Do you remember the night your mom, you, and I had some fun? We had the best time. I promised to NEVER tell anyone. It is to be kept between the three of us. But there was nothing better. You were so happy as well as I was. Kim was incredible. She is officially the best mom ever. When we were together she was like my mom. She really was. With everything. I thank you for sharing her with me. I loved when you called her ma’ae ( I have no idea how to spell that) But back to that night , I pretended to be the bird from finding Nemo.. haha. I said over and over again Ma’ae Ma’ae Ma’ae! And I ate the WHOLE thing of Cinnamon Rolls. And Nutella! Anyways. I had to share that moment with you. I miss you. Bad. I think of you all day everyday. You were the best. Amazing. Beautiful. Just Incredible. No words can describe your inner beauty . And your outer beauty. I love you Ciannon. Best friend. You will never ever be forgotten. There is not a day or second that will go by that I don’t think of you. You’re the best. You are amazing. I love you.
Hi Ciannon, I think I posted this in a different area than I meant to. It’s a few days late but you know it was for the day of your service.
Dear Ciannon: I never imagined that I would attend one of my student’s memorial service, especially of one so young and full of sparkles as you. While I wish you’d chosen life, I am so ready to honor your spirit by celebrating you today. You had the sweetest smile, the best laugh, and the most generous heart. I’m so sorry that life got to be too difficult for you for you to stay and watch magic unfold to reveal a happier and more beautiful version for you. While my tears will flow, today is about celebrating you. I love you always. Xoxo
I want to tell you my favorite memorie of you, in group one night we were playinh the story dice game, it landed on this funny looking creature i called the oogooly boogly, you thought it was the funniest thing, for the rest of group you and i would laugh so hard at the oogoly boogly monster. Im never going to get to tell you so many things. I will always remeber u full of smiles. one day we will meet again and laugh about the oogoly boogly.
Ciannon I didn’t know that well but thank you for greeting me In the 6th grade. Thanks for makeing fell better when I was sad. Your amazing girl. RIP Ciannon basher.
I got to see you with your Mom. The free spirit you exude, the love of animals, the love of the outdoors comes through in an instant.
I love that you did things like drive a big huge tractor in the back yard and that your Mom didn’t freak out but let you be you.
I love that you went with your Mom when the major fires were in San Diego to help the animals get to a safe place.
I love the light you have always brought to your Mom, and that you will continue to bring her from where ever you are now.
You are so missed. We don’t know why you went. But we are here to continue to hear you from where you are dear Ciannon.
Rest in peace…,
Ciannon was my daughter’s best friend and I’m glad that she was in our life. She was kind, sweet girl and a pleasure to have around. I loved overhearing Lisa and Ciannon laughing hysterically when Ciannon stayed the night.
They focused on the Titanic’s impact in a project for history month. They cracked each other up, as well as me, joking around in the back seat on the way to the Molly Brown museum. They were hilarious as they plotted after history day to sink the Titanic model in Viele Lake.
Kim was always exceptionally kind and caring to Lisa and was like another mom to her. I was struck by Kim making sure that there was vegan food kept in her home in case Lisa stopped by after school. Lisa loved going over there.
Ciannon will be very missed.
You are an amazing person and we have some of the best memories ever!!! Like when we were on 29th street and we walked into the wrong movie because we were being so stupid but then again that was such a fun time and i will MISS having all those good memories with you!! && you were a very very good friend to me you were always there for me when i needed it the most and did not have anybody else to turn to… You will always be in my heart no matter what because i love you sooooo much!! Rest In Peace babygirl!!
Ciannon will always be with us, she was pretty, outgoing, and was the sweetest girl. I know that she is up there with plenty others looking down on these memories with a huge grin on her beautiful face. ❤ Make sure that she is never forgotten. She is way to pretty and sweet to ever be forgotten. She has so many people that love her and will always have her friend ship. Even if you did not know her she will always be looking out for u from above.
I never was a close friend of yours. But when I saw you in the halls, I thought how beautiful you were, how your smile could light up a room, and how your laugh was contagious. I have always admired your beauty, your spirit, and your spunk. I will miss you no matter what.
Lisa, I’ve been thinking about you, what a good friend you were to Ciannon, and how incredibly painful this must be. Please let me know if you, or any of Ciannon’s friends want to talk. I was out of town when this happened- just got back this morning. My heart is breaking…Ms. Cornelius Smith
Ciannon, I remember you as being one of the most friendly, one of the most outgoing people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. You could brighten anyone`s day in a heartbeat and you used that ability constantly. I remember joking around in gym and trying to be good at badminton. I hope there is some way that you can read all of these loving memories.
Ciannon, i didnt get the chance to meet you, but i knew some friends who were close friends with you. You seem so sweet and you are such a wonderful person, and your so gorgeous! Im so sad i didnt get to meet you, I think we would of gone to school together for high school. Your in my prayers and will always be in our hearts. We love you Ciannon<3
Some of the best memories that Ciannon and I had were when after school we would just sit outside on the fence outside of her house and talk about everything. She was always so beautiful in anything she ever wore. I remember always being jealous of her. Another memory that I’ll always remember was when Ciannon was going to her math tutor but since we had 30 minutes to spare beforehand we climbed to the top of a pine tree. I can remember it swaying in the wind and her smile. I also remember when Ciannon took me to my first concert and Dara, John, Ciannon, and I showered ourselves with glitter, working on National History Day nearly each day together, chasing her chinchilla around her bedroom, screaming the lyrics of various songs together, taking gymnastics classes at CATS, spending the afternoon at Abo’s, Dollar Tree, and King Soopers every Friday of seventh grade and of course Von Dutch (our little secret thanks for sharing it with me).
Thank you for also showing me the store Tilly’s. Thank you for allowing me to eat half the food in your pantry each time I came to your house. Thank you for teaching me how to approach your cat without giving it a heart attack. Thank you for taking me to my first concert. Thank you for letting me climb on your roof. Thank you for sitting in the back of the library with me. Thank you for introducing me to the song Ships in the Night. Thank you for getting through National History Day together with me, although it was one of the funnest projects I had ever done because I got to always hang out with you. Thank you for sitting outside on the fence outside your house with me and lastly thank you for being my friend, being there for me, and giving me the pleasure of sharing every memory that we’ve had together. You’ll always be in my heart and I’ll never forget you.
Kim, thank you for being such a great mother. I always loved talking to you whenever I came to your house and appreciate everything you’ve done (including helping us so much on that model of the Titanic which me and Ciannon totally did by ourselves).
With love, Lisa
I still remember the day I first met you in Kindergarten. You were so little and bright, although we didn’t really like each other until 2nd grade; you always made me laugh and smile. You were my best friend for 7 years and I love and miss you so much. I remember when we went to the beach late at night and looked up at the stars, we were just 7 or 8, and we closed our eyes and made a wish that we would become sisters. Our wish came true, that wished caused some unhappiness later on but we got through and we became closer than we ever were. I never felt alone with you by my side. We were both so scared to leave our home in California to go to a completely different state. We dreaded the first day of school and hated the heat of the summer, but we both were okay because we had each other. The first year of middle school here we barely left each other’s side, although we did make our separate friends. I remember that we both developed a crush on the boy next door and made a pact we both couldn’t have him because we loved each other more. You knew absolutely everything about me and I don’t regret that, I remember a month ago you told me I was the only person you could trust and I am the only person to know how you feel because we went/were going through the same stuff. You made me feel good about myself most of the time and we always were there together through our ups and downs. I love you more than anything. You used to be this super short cute little girl, but you became one of the most beautiful people I know and never looked bad. You always looked good in your clothes and I always envied your body. I hope that you are in heaven, and happy. You mean the world to me and I will NEVER forget you. I hope you can forgive me for not helping you out enough and that we barely ever talked this past year. When I think of you I can’t forget the time when we first saw snow together in colorado and how we got in our bikinis and rolled down the snowy hill in truth and dare. I also will never forget the time you stood up for me and told this person who told me to kill myself that that wasn’t okay and if she ever said that to your best friend again she’d regret it. I wish I could have stood up for you more. I will stay strong and live my life for you. You are on my mind 24/7 and I will always smile at our memories.
I met you back in fourth grade through soccer. We were both on evil coach David’s team. We became good friends right from the start because we shared the same weirdness. I remember after a game, you came up to me and asked if I would like to come over and swim in your pool. I said yes and I remember the long drive to your house. I was so excited and we ended up having the best time. We swam and tortured your American girl dolls. We played board games and played with your dogs. It was a great day. From then on, we were the best of friends. We went to the same school in fifth grade and then you moved to Colorado. I loved video chatting with you almost every night and when you would tell me that you were coming to San diego, I would count down the days. I had so much fun going to the shopping center by your house and buying tons of packs of gum. I love swimming in your pool, playing with your pets, chewing whole packs of gum at once, eating quadruple stuffed Oreos and laughing with you.
You are so kind, beautiful, caring and hilarious. You still make me laugh to this day, just thinking about how funny you are. You’re such a sweet girl and I love how you were always considerate of other people. You are the best friend that I’ve ever had in my entire life and I am so thankful for everything. I miss you so much Ciannon.
To Dr bashers: I’m so sorry for what happened. But thanks for letting me come over and spend time with Ciannon. Please let me know if there’s anything I can do.
You were and are still so beautiful. You always made me smile in the hallways! I will miss you and so will many others!
~Love you! Miss you!
Ciannon…. Just like cinnamon the color of your hair. I had a wonderful opportunity to style your hair for the last four years. You had such a charisma about your personality. We could talk music, celebrities, and everything else that was going on with our crazy world. Those hour long appts that I always ran late because your hair was so thick, and lost track of time. Just so that we could make something more drastic or lost track of time talking. Thank you for the opportunity to know you. I love you and your mom and I hope you never forget me…. Ever
I will always treasure the memories I have of you. I loved hanging out with you. I remember when Clay introduced us. You always made me happy when I was sad. I will miss you, and always remember you.
Thank you for sharing your kind heart and radiant smile with all the students and staff at Southern Hills…you were a joy to teach and a pleasure to be around…
“To live in the hearts of those we love is never to die.” (Thomas Campbell) May the memory of your beautiful life live on forever and your heart rest in peace…
I haven’t spoken to you in a very long time. To be exact, since you moved to Colorado. I am sorry that we did not keep in contact. I love you so much! You are a beautiful, creative, fun, and caring girl. Our time we spent together was always a blast: meeting in preschool, sharing our small little lunches, always sitting right next to each other in circle time, always attending each others birthdays, playing in your backyard, watching my mom paint all the sponge bob characters all over your room, playing with all your animals, going to our first concert together, going to all our camps together, tending to the newborn kittens in your laundry room, and being your best friend. I don’t remember many of our memories since it was so long ago, but I do remember always being thrilled as a little girl to go over to my best friends house for a new adventure. I miss you already Ciannon, but I know you will be waiting for me in heaven sitting on God’s lap with a huge smile on your face. I love you dearly Ciannon!
To Ciannon’s mom:
You are a fantastic mom Mrs. Basher! I love you like a second mom. You were always there for Cinannon being the best mom she could have. You supported her with everything. I always was so excited to not just come hang out with Cinannon, but also YOU because you were always such a fun mom. I am so sorry about Cinannon and I hope for the best for you and Mr. Basher. If you need anything, please feel free to call us or come stay at our house. I love you Mrs. Basher!
I love you so much. You are so beautiful, from the inside out, and I have always loved everything about you since the day that I met you. I actually remember the first time I met you… We had French class together for 2 years and we would always sit together. I liked you so much ever since the first time we talked, and I knew that we would grow closer and closer. We would always be getting moved away from each other because we talked too much, and we would laugh at everything. Not going to lie, neither of us enjoyed the class much, but being with you made every day more bearable. You would always tell me how jealous you were of me, I don’t really know why, but you’d say it all the time. And you would write me essays about how much you cared about me and you gave such good advice, and honestly, I should have been there for you more often. I tried to contact you as much as possible always to see how you were doing, and when I got through to you and when we would hang out you were such a great friend, and always acted so happy and upbeat, but I knew you were sad behind all the smiles and laughing. And I know that now, you can really smile and laugh and cherish every moment to it’s fullest, and you are in a better place – wherever you are. Quite honestly, I have always been so jealous of you and your charm and beauty and what a lovely girl you are and always will be. I love you and I will save our notebooks full of notes to each other forever, and every secret you’ve ever told me, and every wonderful moment and memory you’ve ever given me will stay with me forever.
Rest in peace my love.
I met Ciannon in 6th grade. We did track together, so Jessica Steele, Lisa Kilmer, and Ciannon, and I would hang out during track. I wasnt the best of friends with her, but I will always remember the way she made me smile. At the beginning of 7th grade Jessca had a birthday party. Ciannon was there, and that night was so fun… We watched Blades of Glory, Laughed, Ate pizza at 1 in the morning, drank Sanpelligerno all night, told scary stories and we were up till 2 scared of the little window in Jessica’s room. I will never forget the story Ciannon told. It was a story with a guy and his dog. It was scary! After that we drifted. I remember her as a happy person. She was always smiling and she was really pretty. Its going to be wierd not seeing her next year. Ciannon? Where ever you are, I hope youre happy sweetie. I know that you deserve happiness. You will always be in my heart. For her dear parents, I am so sorry for your lost. I can’t imagine the pain you must be in. For now, all I can say is we will ALL remember Ciannon in a positive way, we will keep her in our hearts. We will keep you in our thoughts and our prayers. Ciannon will be missed. RIP you will always be loved.
you were the most amazing person… i did not know you that well but whenever i saw you your look just always made me feel better.
i hope that you are in a better place now. you were so sweet and you were the most beautiful girl i ever met. its hard to think that you are gone but when i think about it you are not truly gone you will always be in my heart. you will be missed by so many.
I met Ciannon at Rachel Simmons’ Girls Leadership Institute when she and Joy were in the 6th grade. It was a weekend with mothers and daughters and the author of Odd Girl Out. We worked on developing conflict resoluton skills and broadened our emotional vocabulary. Ciannon and Joy were happy to have eachother there, as the other girls seemed a little too enthusiastic about the activities :). I had been calling Joy’s hair ‘auburn’ until I met Ciannon. I just wanted to touch Ciannon’s beautiful hair when I first saw her. What color is that? She and Kim were so nice and so sweet to Joy and I. My main memory is of a loved child and very caring and gentle mother. I was surprised to see that Ciannon was such a lovely grown up young woman at continuation. My, how all of our girls had grown! I am very sad and will miss Ciannon very much.
Jamie Kanda- Joy’s mom.
My first memory of you is your arrival into sixth grade. Everyday you came with your little metal box filled with the tools of your trade…creativity. You always presented a brave, happy face on the outside though I know you had your struggles. Thanks for gracing my life and my classroom. You will be missed.
When I first met Ciannon, she was 4 years old. I was introduced to her by her mom who said, “This is Ciannon, she’s all I have”.
I became her Nanny, and helped take care of her for almost 3 years. In that time, I learned what a beautiful girl she was, inside and out. She was smart, funny, daring and sweet. We did so many things together; Parks, Seaworld, Legoland, swim lessons, piano lessons, The Wild Animal Park, playdates with friends…and many more. She was great with my son, who was like a little brother to her.
I will always remember her smile and her love for all creatures. I miss you already Ciannon, and I love you! Jenn
Ciannon was my best friend and she always will be. We drifted towards the end but she will always be in my heart for as long as I shall live. She was always there for me when i needed her the most, she always wanted to have a good time and she never gave up. I remember the times we would talk about her haunted house in the mountains and take quizzes on facebook to verify it. I remember the time when we made a movie theater in her basement and had it alpaca themed. I remember being just so amazed at all the apps on her iphone and how much i envied her room. Ciannon was the most beautiful person I knew in so many ways. I love her.
I never knew Ciannon too well, but she was always someone I looked up to. She was always an inspiration to me. The first time I ever saw her was three years ago. She and her Izzy, were walking down the river in my back yard laughing and having the time of their lives. I asked my brother who they were and he said to me “Oh, that’s Ciannon and Izzy. I like Ciannon. She’s one of the nicest people ever.” I looked out of the window one last time and I was shocked at how red her hair was. I had never seen anything like it before. On the first day of sixth grade, I remember seeing her with all of her seventh grade friends. She was so beautiful. I was always afraid to talk to her, she seemed so much better than I was. But whenever I did get the pleasure to talk to Ciannon, it felt like my day had been made. She had this sort of glow that could make anyone feel like they belonged, like they mattered. I could tell she meant so much to so many, and I wished I could have gotten to know her on a more personal level. I had heard lots of things about Ciannon, and they were all positive. She seemed so strong, she held herself in a way where it seemed almost impossible to not respect her. She became someone I secretly looked up to. She always looked so bubbly no matter what happened. One day I saw her sitting in a dark corner of the office with her face in her hands. She seemed so upset. It nearly broke me. A week later I saw her again, looking happy. I could only feel relieved. Ciannon was never someone close to me, but I will always keep her in my heart and remember her as an inspiration.
I didn’t even know how to pronounce her name back then. We had science class together in sixth grade and occasionally I would drop my pencil and she would pick it up and hand it to me but besides a few “Thanks” we rarely ever even made eye contact. Luckily that summer my good friend Leah decided to throw a party with only a few close friends. I was so surprised when Ciannon answered the door. The next morning, after everyone left, Leah and I were cleaning up and discovered Ciannon had forgotten her pillow. Leah promised Ciannon she would return it. We became closer in seventh grade and by the beginning of eighth we were having sleepovers every weekend. I never really knew how important our friendship was though until one snowy day when we were walking to her house and she suddenly stopped and covered her face with her gloves and cried. I had never seen her cry like that before. I freaked. Then she uncovered her face. She had the biggest smile. She hugged/tackled me and we fell into the snow. After helping each other up we both laughed and simultaneously said “Your my best friend!” I will remember that sentence for the rest of my the life.
Leah called me yesterday. She said she forgot to give Ciannon her pillow.
Ciannon and I just met this year, but we got really close. We could talk about anything in the world and share things with each other that you can only trust a few people
with. The both of us were cheesy weird dorks, and we had so much fun just being our selfs with eachother. Nither of us had to worry about being judged around eachother. We would jam out to music no one else seemed to like, climb trees, just lay around in pjs and look bad all day, wach cows and just flat out act like little kids all day. We considered one another the closest of friends. No matter what we promised we would always be friends. When one of us or even both of us were sad we could alway come to the other talk or even cry it out. I can’t begin to explane how much I will miss my venting buddie…. I can’t even explain how I feel about all this. One thing I will never doubt is that Ciannon was a sweet caring girl who deserves the best of the best. I love her so much and so very happy she is in someplace amazing now. Our friendship wasn’t defined by how long we have known eachother it was defined by the fact we were ALWAYS there for eachother. I care for her dearly and I wish the best to her mother Kim who she admierd so much. My thoughts are always with you Cananana (Ciannon).
On the first day of school, three years ago, I approached ciannon. She was standing by herself in the courtyard, for she had just moved from california to colorado, and didn’t know anyone yet. I was confused as to why someone so beautiful like ciannon could possibly be by themselves. When i reached her, i invited her over to eat with us, and talk to us. Right as the lunch bell rang, i said in a quiet british accent, ” I just know we are going to be the best of friends!” as a joke. I had no idea how right i would be. We later found out our lockers were next to each others. We were in the same math class, so every morning we would compare and copy each others homework. She took me to my first concert. She made me smile when I was blue. We could laugh and talk for hours. My favorite thing would be to go over to her house, see her loving animals, and talk to her and her amazing mom. Ciannon loved her mom. She would talk about her for hours on end, and we would agree with her. Her mom is a shinning star in the world, and i thank her for letting me have the chance to know her daughter, and for raising her to be such a wonderful person I know and miss.
Ciannon was my very best friend.. I can’t even express how i feel about her. There are no words to describe our in relationship. She means so much to me.
I love you, you were the most amazing girl I ever met. We were always there for each other and I’m
So glad we were able to be together to the end, I would not have traded my time with her for anything else. Nothing could have made our time better. My time with you was the best of my life. We were always able to talk about everything, I want to say so much to you. We had so much to still do. I remember promising you that as soon as you got back I would take you wherever you wanted to go and that I would teach you to backflip. I miss you, but I know that no matter what you would want all of us to keep going, it was amazing the time I spent with you, And I’m so glad that at the best and the worst I was there with you to help you. I remember us hanging out all the time and us playing Xbox and me convincing you to play minecraft, I Remember how much fun we had just sitting and talking for hours and hours. It was so fun when we climbed trees and I made excuses of playing basket ball to hang out with you. I remember me trying to show you really weird stuff on YouTube and then you showed me the weirdest stuff on it I ever saw. I was really just the most happy guy when we hugged because when we did it just made me feel better. I will love you forever and I will never, EVER forget all those amazing times we spent together. I love you Ciannon. I always will.
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